𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐲||bsd x male reader

One last time

It has been a week after Mirais death, a week you skipped school. But you decided to come back to school once again. You promised you'll be a good person to her, so you'll do your best to do her wishes. Because you love your mother

Revenge was useless because the culprit was already caught. And Mirai will hate it if you killed those killers. You don't want to kill anyone anymore. Because you realized your ability has another rule, that If you kill someone, it will also take someone important in your life. It was a give and take situation when it came to taking life. You really learned your lesson the hard way

Second year high school was really easy for you. It was easy to catch up to lessons, and once again, you were at the top of the class. Everyone praises you, but you still feel so empty

It's so empty because there's no point in going home earlier than usual, no point in visiting Dazai anymore. So you wanted to give Dazai a farewell before leaving him

So right now you arrived at the same place, the same time waiting for him. You heard footsteps, you heard a familiar footsteps, you heard a familiar voice that you missed

"Oi Y/N, it's been a week! Why did you ditch me!" You missed his whining,but you still hated me

"I don't want to see you anymore. This will be our last meeting," you said again dully, and you heard him run up to you

"Eh?! You know what I'll do right so -" He stopped himself from talking when you looked at him with tears brimming in your eyes

"She's dead," your voice quivers, and your heart sunken when you heard him laugh

"Then, wanna commit double suicide?" He said the same usual enthusiasm

You wiped your tears, and you smiled sadly at him
"I'm sorry, but I'm still planning to live on." You hear him groan, but it was true

Mirai, your mother had always told you

'To aim for a brighter future'

That was weird because Mirai, her name, meant future, yet she died at a young age. She didn't deserve to die. But it was your fault she died. If you had rewritten everything, her fate would change

"But isn't she the reason you live? She's gone now, so you really don't have anyone anymore, " Dazai said, scooting closer to you, and you only shook your head to deny him

"No, you are wrong. Mirai told me, I'm still wanted, I'm still seen, I'm still loved by someone." Dazaj eyes widen and lean his head closer to you

"By who?" You lowered your head and turned your back at him

"You," your answer made Dazai heartbeat quicken, and his ears went red. He struggled to find something to retort back

You turned your back to look at him one last time. This time, you gave him your most genuine smile

"Osamu, thank you for your company," you said one last time to him before leaving him alone. You left him a blushing mess

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You never knew your father that well. He never visited your home. Because he sleeps somewhere else, another house he made away from your estate, rich people really waste money. He still talks to you sometimes,once a year, sometimes four. He only said things like announcing what work his currently doing. You know your father did dirty jobs before. Because you used your ability on him.

You also read ranpo well that you know what happened to the both of them. Your dad still talks to you to remind you that you'll work at his company. To study hard, to not get sick

You wondered if he cares for you, or he just cared about your ability that surely will help with a lot of cases. You, of course, want to use your ability for good, but not those work other detectives do. Rather, being a crime consultant. You read people so well, you wanted to read whats inside of a criminal, how they think, their personality

It is a boring job for others, but to you, this is where you are an expert

"It takes a thief to catch a thief." Your used to be online friend from russia said

And you like reading people because it's amusing for you to see other people's perspectives. And if you could, you will rewrite their life if you find it really boring

So from now on, you'll do your best to reach your standard, to be the best crime consultant in this generation

And while you were thinking of all those you remembered your other maids had told you, Mirais family had buried their daughter. Yokohoma Foreign cemetery was the name where she was buried

Mirai had always told you how her own family loved her dearly. No wonder she was full of warmth. She has a loving family

Walking straight to the cemetery, you are holding her favourite flowers in your hand, a bouquet of forget me not flowers. She loves these flowers so much that she has planted these flowers in your estate garden. The bouquet in your hands are the ones you made for her. it's the flower she had grown, and you will also take care of those flowers for her

Walking at night in the cemetery used to be scary, but you aren't afraid because Mirai soul will always be by your side. Then you saw the headstone with her name on it, 'Yosuko Mirai'

You smiled warmly at her grave and took a seat at the dirty pavement. You placed your flower and clapped your hands two times, and prayed for her

'Mirai, my mother, from now on, I'll continue to aim for a brighter future. Be the good person you always wanted.' You finished praying, and you told her what happened to your day today, like you always did when she was alive

You apologize for only showing up late for her funeral. You told her your secrets meeting with Dazai. You fight the urge to cry. It was a special moment you dont want to ruin it

"You know mom, after high school graduation, I'm working at Dad's company. I know you'll hate it, but it has been my dream to become a crime consultant. You know, I told you about it before. " You stopped talking and bit your lip when you felt tears trail down your cheeks. You couldn't hold your tears back and sob

It was nightime, so no one will see how pathetic you look

After successfully wiping your tears, you decided to go home

You didn't notice someone was watching you. You didn't notice the pain and guilt on their faces. How they clenched their teeth and how tightly they balled their fist

How they wish he can hug his one and only son and apologize