TW: attempted suicide
Yn's pov
Yn
Guys
Have u heard from mikey recently?
Smiley
Aww is yn worried about him?
Angry
I mean yeah ofc brother
They're pretty close after all
Chifuyu
Replying to Yn
Sorry no
He blocked me
Smiley
U too?
Mitsuya
OK how many ppl here got blocked by Mikey
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Baji
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Draken
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Smiley
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Angry
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Yn
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Takemitchi
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Chifuyu
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Mitsuya
OK let's just say that everyone here got blocked
Any idea why?
Draken
Idk ask yn
Baji
Draken no-
Yn
I'M FUCKING SORRY OK
IT'S MY FAULT I REJECTED HIM
IT'S MY FAULT I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM
IT'S MY FAULT I HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND
Chifuyu
Yn calm down-
Yn
HOW THE FUCK CAN I CALM DOWN
HE'S ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND I HAVEN'T SEEN OR HEARD FROM HIM FOR OVER THREE FUCKING WEEKS
HE COULD BE FUCKING DEAD FOR ALL I KNOW
SO HOW CAN I CALM DOWN
Draken
U THINK IM NOT WORRIED?
I'VE KNOWN HIM MUCH LONGER THAN U HAVE
HE'S NEVER BLOCKED ME BEFORE
I'VE NEVER GONE THIS LONG WITHOUT CONTACTING HIM
SO STFU FOR ONE MINUTE
THIS IS LITERALLY YOUR FAULT
Rindou
OI SHUT UP
THAT'S NOT THE WAY U TREAT MY GF
Draken
BITCH WE ALL KNOW THAT THIS IS U GUYS' FAULT
IF YN HADN'T FALLEN FOR U THEN THIS NEVER WOULD'VE HAPPENED
IT'S YN'S FAULT TOO
ESPECIALLY HERS
SHE'S THE ONE WHO REJECTED HIM
IF HE'S DEAD THEN IT'S ALL CUZ OF HER
Yn went offline
Of course I know that. If only I hadn't fallen for Rindou. If only we weren't dating. If only I hadn't rejected Mikey. But then I would have needed to reject Rindou and he might go on a killing spree. I guess it's a no-win situation. I still can't get that image out of my head. His heartbroken eyes, the mix of tears and raindrops streaming down his face, it hurt so bad to know that I was the one who did that to him. To one of my best friends.
I want him to know that I'm hurting just as much as him. Wait, scratch that. He's probably in much more pain than me. We're talking about a heartbreak here. Not just any heartbreak though. The kind of heartbreak where your heart is shattered into millions of tiny pieces, the remains then being spat on, all by the person that you love. I know how that feels like. What happened to 'don't do onto other's that you don't want other's to do onto you' ? I hate myself. I hate myself so much. I wish I loved Mikey in a different way. I wish I didn't think of him as a friend. Why can't I just choose who I love?
