I.
When I was a child, I wanted an American Girl doll
more than anything—even the loose curls
America taught me to crave. I wanted to pick
at every scab to see myself bleed. I wanted
a book with a girl who looked like me on the cover.
I wanted long hair. I wanted blue eyes. I wanted
another life. I wanted someone else's girlhood
around my neck like a noose. I wanted to hang
like a black dress on a clothesline until the loneliness
dried.II.
What a girl wants is often not what a girl needs.What a girl needs is often bitter but we are told to want sweet things.
What a girl wants is often disregarded.
III.
What a Black girl wants
is often considered
nonexistent.What a Black girl wants
is often not
considered.IV.
I wanted my Blackness
and my girlness
to beconsidered.
I both wanted
and despised
my unacknowledged—my unsparing—
my inherent—twoness.
I wanted most
to beconsidered.
V.
What a Black girl wants is often not what a Black girl needs.
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