falling for you. | tarasia

pain

fantasias pov:
i felt nauseous this morning. ive been vomiting since last night. maybe it was something i ate..

anyway, i have my car back.

waking up at six, i took care of my hygiene first and then went to iron my work clothes.

7:20

i stopped for boba and a bagel before going to work. my job is thirty minutes from my house, and i refuse to starve on this road.

7:32

i almost ran off the road tryna stop the car so i could vomit. i felt dizzy all over again. it was hot, and the air was blowing full speed.

7:51

i made it to work. i was feeling a little better than before. i wasn't trying to lose my job anyway, so i just pulled myself together as much as i could.

i spoke as i walked in.

"hey yall!"

"hey girl! your friend came by, he said you haven't called yet."

"jason?"

"yup! thats him. "

"oh god, i forgot all about that. ill do it today, i promise. "

"so, anyway, we ready for tonight?"

"yes! i can't wait to see my man" melanie said.

"our" holly corrected her.

"he already asked me to be his girlfriend, so you're pretty much late."

"oh? thats a bit wild because he proposed to me on stage lastnight"

"what time?"

"....after i left work"

"he doesn't live down here"

"he flew on his private jet, babe."

"yeah yeah whatever. my man my man my man!"

9:30

"hey, could you take the next customer? i have to use the um- the bathroom"

"you ok?"

"yeah, i think it was the bagel and boba i had earlier."

i threw that up. didnt understand why i was still feeling this way.

i just wanted to go home and go to sleep.

"you good, girl?"

"yeah, i just need to rest."

"well, get all the rest you need tonight when you go home. we gotta have energy for this concert and party."

"of course!" i put on a fake smile. i feel a mess.

once i saw the number 2, i ran to my car, almost falling on my face.

once i made it home, i got straight in my bed, and i dont even play the getting in my bed with outside clothes thing, but i had to lie down immediately. ive never felt this bad before in my life.

5:12

the pain was even worse after i woke up. i called my parents crying.

"come over here"

"whats the matter?!"

"mama, can yall just come, please..."

"on our way. stay on the phone. "

5:35

"hey, whats going on?"

"cramps, i have cramps, but my period isnt even here, and it hurts."