falling for you. | tarasia

symptoms

                t's apartment/pov:

by the time we made it, she knocked out, mouth wide open. i had to snap a picture

"tasia.. tasia wake up. "

"im up"

"you cant be up with yo eyes closed."

"where are we even?"

"my crib."

i got out to unlock the door and went back to the car to open hers.

"come on"

"dont grab my hand. i can walk. "

"so much for tryna help got damn"

i locked my car, and we made our way inside.

"this is- this is nice"

"preciate you. ima grab you something to throw on"

"so you kept the gifts"

referring to the congralution gifts she bought me for hitting 1M.

"why wouldn't i?"

"dont know"

it meant something to me coming from her. of course, i wasn't gon trash it.

"aight you can shower in my bathroom. ima take the guest room."

"why would i shower in your bathroom before you?"

"i use the shit every day, one day without it aint gon hurt shit. i would rather you use that one anyway. you can sit down on that bench thing in there if you dont wanna stand too long."

she took the clothes and walked away. i went into the guest room. the shower in here is fye, but it aint my kind of fye. either way, it gets the job done, so ion too much care.

1:45

"your clothes are too small for me"

"you carrying a load back there, that's why. lets go to sleep now. im tired. "

"we are not sleeping in the same bed"

"ain tryna sleep by myself"

"why dont you call pandora? im sure she can help you with that."

"tasia"

"no, im not gonna sit here and listen to you tell me how much i mean to you just for you to betray me all over again"

"i never betrayed you in the first place"

"you let the girl answer my call an-"

"i aint let her answer shit."

"even if you didn't, why weren't you responding to my messages?"

"ain have nothing to say to that"

"reassurance would've helped, but instead, you left me on seen. im so stupid to keep letting you back into my life only for you to show me just how much i dont mean anything to you."

"why you cant just trust me?"

"im s- im sorry what? please repeat that because i think my ear detached itself from me after hearing bs."

"yeen tryna hear it, so aint no point in me talking"

"this is exactly what im referring to. you couldn't communicate to save your gi- life."

"what you want me to say to that? you know ion want nobody else, so why you trip on me like you do"

"how am i supposed to know that when your actions are telling me something totally different?"

"tell me what you want me to do."

"what?"

"whats gon make us be straight?"

"i have to tell you? you should already know"

"i dont. so tell me."

"just respect me enough to set boundaries with your girls. pandora especially"

"what else?"

"im gonna let you take it from there. you're not a child, you understand what it is im asking of you"

"bet. can you come in the bed now?"

her phone rung..

"hello?"

...

"yes, im fine."

...

"i did earlier, but im good now"

...

"mommy, yes, stop asking me that."

...

"no, im sorry, i just- i dont like that question"

...

"i love you too, goodnight"

"you good?"

"fine"

"shirt"

i like to sleep skin to skin.

"you fine as shit, you know that? shaped like a hourglass i fuck with that"

"thank you. wish i could say the same"

"oh thats fucked up. im good with my lil shape"

"as you should be. there's nothing wrong with that"

"fantasia..."

"what?"

"scoot closer"

"im already close. what do you want me to crawl in your skin?"

"yeah duh"

i threw her leg over my waist and scooted a lil closer, burying my face in her chest.

                     fantasias pov:

i think its about time i go see a doctor or something. i woke up vomiting.

"tasia?!" t called out.

i couldn't even speak.

"how you feeling?" she rubbed up and down my back as i sat over the toilet.

"a mess. what time is it?"

"six twenty six."

"i need to go home"

"aight let me throw on some clothes"

i just hope its not what i think it is.

"you wanna stop and grab breakfast?"

"it'll just come back up"

"what you ate yesterday?"

"a few wings and i didnt even eat them all"

"youn thank they laced the wings, do you?"

"t stop."

"alright alright just tryna lighten the mood a lil bit"

"im just nervous, that's all"

"bout what?"

"i don't know i just am."

not making these long nomore...