I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader)

-28-You won't get rid of me

TW: suicidal Thoughts
Wounds
Anxiety/Panic
Mentioning of Suicide
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Emilys POV

Everything will be fine now.

The sentence keeps ringing through my head and I can't stop hoping that it's true.

The drive home is silent, while JJ sits in the back seat and is lost in her own thoughts, Y/N's head is leaning against the window and her eyes keep closing.
She has trouble staying awake, this day has been long and exhausting.
But despite the tiredness that has a firm grip on her, she tightly holds my hand, that is resting on her thigh. When I have to change gear, I just take her hand with me.

Every time I do that, I see a slight flash of a smile on her face.

When we finally arrive at the apartment, I immediately put the kettle on for tea while JJ accompanies Y/N to the sofa.

"What do you think about me ordering us something to eat?" I suggest as I enter the living room again and look at the two of them, who are sitting a little lost on the sofa.
They both just nod and my gaze lingers on Y/N, who has her head resting in her hands as if she couldn't hold it up on her own.

I head over to her and sink to my knees in front of her, my eyes examining her lovingly.

"Would you like to take a shower, my love?" I ask, brushing a loose strand of hair from her face.
She nods slowly, but I can see in her eyes that the thought scares her.
JJ seems to sense this immediately too.

JJ also heard during the interrogation what Y/N used to have to endure when she showered and we all know, that doing it alone today would not be a good idea.

"How about if I order the food and you two freshen up a bit?" She suggests and stands up to get the take-away menus.
"Any requests?" She asks, waving the menus up.
"The main thing is that it goes with a lot of wine. I've been looking forward to this all day."
I answer with a sigh, making everyone laugh.
Seeing Y/N and JJ laugh like that makes me giggle with relief.
Our laughter fills the room and suddenly the weird atmosphere is gone and it feels like our home again.

While JJ disappears into the kitchen and takes care of the food, I turn my gaze back to Y/N.
"Believe me, you'll feel better afterwards.
And I won't leave you alone, okay?"

Y/N's POV

I look at Emily doubtfully, but her gaze is so loving, so full of hope that I can't resist her.
I nod and force myself to smile a little.
She helps me stand up and supports me on the way to the bathroom.

After closing the door, she looks for a fresh towel while I undress hesitantly.
Gratefully, I hold the towel in front of my nacked body to cover myself as she holds it out to me.

Her eyebrows furrow in concern as she notices me shrinking down and hiding my body behind the towel.

"Can you... could you join me in the shower?"
I ask quietly, feeling completely ridiculous.
"I thought you'd never ask me," Emily replies, relieved, her beautiful laugh filling the small room.

I immediately relax a little and watch as Emily quickly removes her clothes and ties her hair into a bun with a practiced movement.
I watch her in awe, as always completely impressed by her effortless beauty.

"What's wrong?" she asks, pausing when she notices my gaze.
"I love you, Em," I say, taking a step toward her.
Then I drop my towel and reach out to hug her.
She hugs me back, her strong hands enveloping me, and I feel safe and secure in her arms.
We stand like that for a long moment, our naked bodies entwined in a tight embrace, and there's nothing sexual about it.