HIS MISTAKE(2nd BOOK) | 18+ BL(BOYS LOVE)

FOURTEEN : WARREN

My heart clenches hard when he slipped out of my grip,when he kissed me,I woke up but didn't open my eyes,I knew he would regret but somewhere in the corner of my heart I had a hope maybe just maybe he would stay but I was wrong.
I'm so pissed,I know I'm the one who told him to leave if he feels like this was all a mistake but why the fuck did he kiss me if he wanted to leave?

I want to break something or anything but at the same time I want to hold him,kiss him,fuck him,Mark him as mine from inside and out and keep him in my arms for the rest of our lives.
How did I become a possessive person like this?
Will he fuck someone else now?
Will he hold and kiss and suck someone else?
I feel a knot in my stomach,this is ridiculous,everything is fucking ridiculous,I get up and went to take a shower,I stare at my feet,I see the water flowing,I hope it takes my pain with it too.

One day turns into one week but my mind doesn't wants to stop thinking about him,it's like he is every-fucking-where.
I need to get rid of this feelings or it will fuck with my mind and heart.
I should date someone or anyone at this rate,I just want to forget him.
I went to my university,I met Nea at the gate and we both went to our respective classes.
After our classes are done,we were supposed to meet at the main gate,I was waiting for her,she came and we both went to our home.
"Did you see that my brother is behaving somewhat oddly?",she says.
I was preparing us a dinner as I listened to her.
"What do you mean?",I ask her.
"I don't know too,he is somewhat silent,he laughs out of nowhere,he smiles out of nowhere and goes too silent out of nowhere",she says.

I feel a pang of guilt in my chest,did I messed his head?
Is it because of me? Did I.....did I make him feel like he is gay? Did I make him confuse about his sexuality?
"Don't turn a Straight guy into gay,that would be awful",the voice returns as I stare at nothing.
"Jesus it will burn",Nea screams from the living room.
I snap back to reality,my heart aching.
No I didn't do it,did I?
If I'm the reason,then I don't think I can ever forgive myself for this,I feel tears as it drops on my hand,I wipe it before Nea notices,I'm glad she is watching a movie.
I bring food to the dining table as I kept our plates on table,I eat and Nea talks something about her project but my mind still stuck on Nick,she notices and asked me twice but I said nothing.
She went home and I sat on the couch,my head aching badly,the words keeps on coming back again and again.

WHEN WARREN WAS 14 YEARS OLD
"I think I like guys mom",I tell my mom nervously but she turned her head in my direction almost looking at me panicking.
"Jesus christ what are talking about Warren? Are you out of your mind?",she yells and I feel tears in my eyes.
I thought she would be understanding but she is yelling at me,I always didn't feel the attachment with my mom,she's all about herself,I always connected with my dad,but he is mostly out of town or country.
So I had told my mom but I would never thought she would react this way.

She shakes me up and I stare at her.
"Did...you....did you touched another guy?",she asks and I nod.
She shoved me on couch,I'm shocked as I see her with teary eyes.
"Mom",I say and she stops me.
"Don't call me that,I can't believe I gave birth to a GAY",she says making a disgusted face.
"MOM,I....",
"Get up let's get you to a nice doctor,I'm sure it can be curable",she says and I nearly laugh at her.
How could she? How could she say something like that to her own son?

"Get up damn you",she screams and I flinch.
"Mom it's not a disease,it's natural,I kissed both girl and a guy,but I got to know that I liked when a guy kissed",I tell her and she slapped me on my face.
I glared at her and she squeezes my arms,pain coursing through my body as I cry out.
"Mom you are hurting me",I cry out.
"Jesus you are disgusting Warren,I disgust you",she says and my heart aches.
How can a mother disgust her own son?
"Mom",I cry out and she drags me to my room and locks me up.
"Mom,please open the door,mom",I scream as I cry.
"Shut up,god you are such a disgrace to our family,how can you kiss....God only thinking is making me sick to my stomach,I can't believe you are my son,god I hate it",she says as her footsteps disappears.
I sit on the floor,dragging my knees to my chest as I cry.

"Dad where are you,please come to me",I whisper to myself as I cry.
I guess it was after 2 days when my dad came back.
"Where are you my son,see what I brought for you",he says as I hear him.
My heart aches,my mom locked me in my room for 2 days now,she only gave me food and water and left,she asked me everytime to get rid of those disgusting feeling then only she will let me out,I begged her to let me out but she didn't even care,I cried for 2 days straight,I couldn't eat anything,I feel weak,my body not helping me at all.
"Dad",I whisper as I bang the door.
After few seconds he opens it,he stares at me shockingly.
"Son what happened? Why are you locked in? What happened?",he asks as I hug him tightly and cry and cry and cry.
I feel pathetic for crying so much.
I told him everything and he took me in his arms,apologizing again and again.
Mom wasn't in the house,I went to take a shower and I ate dinner with my dad,my heart feels numb.
Mom comes around 9 at night,my dad slaps her the moment she entered the living room.
"Honey",she yells.
"Shut the fuck up",dad yells.
"I'm fucking sending you the divorce paper and giving the half of my property,you will never see our faces again",dad says and she glares at me.
She rushes towards me as she holds my arms tightly,
"It's all because of you,you disgusting boy,it's because of YOU",she screams at me as I stare at her painfully.
My dad rips her hands from me as he shoves her.
"You will regret this in your life,you will",she says getting up on her feet.
"Let me give you one advice boy",she says glaring at me,
"Don't turn a Straight guy into gay,that would be awful",she says scoffing as she packs her bag and leaves.

That's the last time I saw my Mom after that I never saw her,it's been 10 years now,but her words still feels like it were said yesterday,it was only Me and my Dad after that.
My dad is everything to me and Nea too.....