A Thousand Times Enough

* Chapter 50 *

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Josie Pov

PS: You will know when to play the song :)

Today was the day, it was prom. I couldn't get a wink of sleep due to how excited and nervous I was, crazy right? I couldn't sleep due to excitement for once instead of worry. Though I didn't think much about prom before today, but it never meant that I didn't care.

I never thought this day would be possible, after everything that I'd gone through surely I didn't think I would make it to this point in my life. Silas and I were officially together, and we were going to prom together. I couldn't believe it.

His words replayed in my mind over and over again like I was watching a film that I loved, except it was of us only. Nobody existed in it, it was just our love and the prosperity of it that overcame everything that ever troubled us along the way.

That night Silas and I talked, about what happened between Tessa and him and Nadia and me. He couldn't stop apologizing, he told me that he was so distraught about the thought of losing us and Tessa noticed that something was up and offered to talk to him about his troubles. Things were going well at first, he explained she really seemed as if she cared about what he was going through.

Then I was brought into the conversation, and she didn't accept the fact that he had feelings for me. As hurtful as it is, he told me the truth, she was never my friend. That she tolerated me because of Nadia, to please her. I cried I did, and he held me all night.

I believed him, everything made sense. I counted numerous times when I had to question her loyalty towards me or love. From her giving me alcohol in the kitchen calling it even, her being mean to me about how I dressed, even to when she laid out my business on the table about me being celibate to her knowledge.

I wanted to call Nadia, I wanted to call her so bad but I knew she was still upset with me, and she had every right to be. I wondered if she knew about how Tessa spoke or felt about me this whole time and it hurt me every time I thought of it. My love for her was real, my love for both of them was real.

But I will never forgive Tessa for what she did, not this time. I was done with her, finally, I was standing up for myself. And if that meant that Nadia would never speak to me again then so be it, I will always love and care for her for what she's done for me. In my heart, she will always be my sister.

I stepped onto the cold bathroom floor of the hotel where Silas and I stayed, he told me about the fight that happened after I left his house. There was nothing that I could do to change his mind, he was set on leaving everything behind and starting a new life with me. However, I couldn't help but feel it was because of me things had escalated, he quickly soothed the surface.

He told me it wasn't my fault, that things had been boiling up for years and he had enough. When he spoke about it even though he tried to hide it, I knew he was hurt. More so about his mother finding out the truth about Eva. It wasn't his fault, I will always be the one to tell him so.

Though I couldn't stop his mind racing against the memories, I could attempt to make more that eases the pain, his pain.

When I stepped out of the bathroom I looked at my dress that hung on the closet door, I had gone this morning to pick up my dress from the boutique but Silas never saw it. I kept it wrapped up until he left the room. He had told me he had some things to take care of and would be back later so that meant I had the room to myself to prepare for the night.

I didn't know what I was planning on doing with my hair but I felt confident enough to wear it down. I grabbed the brush off of the nightstand and began to brush my hair out so that I could flat iron it. I grabbed the flat iron out of my bag and plugged it in but I needed a hair tie to section off the parts.