Love in the dark~ rini oneshots

Hole in the heart -part two

3 months later.

It was finally Christmas. Livs favorite time of year. And plus, they were both doing a lot better now.

Olivia stood in the kitchen making cookies while her husband came up behind her.

"Looks good. Can I have I bite?" He kissed her neck once.

"No! There's raw egg in them!" She replied, shrugging him off. He rolled his eyes and patted her ass as he walked away, making her jump. He sat down at the counter that she was making the cookies on and watched her. Her hair was in a messy bun, she had grey sweatpants on and a green and red hoodie that happened to be Josh's. He studied her with a certain look on his face.

"What?" She asked with a giggle in her voice.

"Nothing. You're just so beautiful." She blushed and slowly pulled the hood of her hoodie up to hide it. "Don't worry I love it when you blush." She smiled but then got lost in thought and it dropped.

"You know... she would be one by now." He sighed and got up. He held her from behind and kissed her head.

"Don't think about that, love. It's gonna be a happy Christmas. All three are with us okay?" She nodded before dropping the spoon and turning around into his chest. He rubbed her back as he felt little drops of water landing on his shirt.

"I love you." She mumbled. He felt his heart break.

"I love you too, buba." He kissed her hair one again and started to run his fingers through it.

"I'm sorry." She said even quieter.

"What for, babe? You're perfect."

"I can't give you a family. You've always wanted that. Remember when we were 16 and working on set together and we were talking about the future we imagined for fun and you said you wanted a big family and an amazing wife."

"And I got that. You are so amazing. The family may just not be our fate but that's okay."

"I know... but it doesn't mean I didn't want one." He was silent, thinking it was best to leave it alone. He kissed her lips and she looked up at him. He kissed her again.

"What do you need to feel better?" He asked her, holding her face in his hands.

"I need you."

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10:56 PM

The two held each other, panting as they calmed down from their little rendezvous. He lazily kissed her head and she just kissed his chest in response.

It was quiet, besides their breaths. Just nice and quiet.

"That was the best time I had ever had. Thank you." Olivia kissed his nose and he smiled at her.

"You're just so beautiful. I know I say that all the time, but it's true."

"Even with my sweaty hair?"

"Yes. Especially when it's caused by me." She laughed and reached over to her nightstand to trace the picture frame she had on there. It was a picture of her holding Elliot right after he was born, laying on her chest. Josh was hovering right over her in the picture. It felt right to have it right next to her bed.