Introducing Alpha Hans

Bare With Me

Celine

"Girl bye! Stop acting scary and give up the pussy! That man is so fucking in love with you he would drink your bath water"

Dream shouts over our FaceTime call.

I laughed and rolled my eyes.

"Girl! I know, I know you are right maybe I will finally stop being scary and give in"

I told her as I sat down on my couch.

"You better! If I come over there tomorrow and you don't have a serve limp then I'mma give you one!"

Dream shouted as she snapped her fingers.

"Girl bye talk to you later!"

I shouted then hung up my phone.

I knew Dream was right, I needed to let go of my fears and guilt. I deserved to be happy too. I felt fear because, I was scared I would never be able to compare to Hercules's wife.

Hercules adored his wife.

After her passing he shut himself off from the world for a while and buried himself in his work.

My heart broke for him, but I stayed by his side as his friend. I always made sure to check in on him, letting him know he was not alone.

Truth be told I fell in love with Hercules, because of the kind of man he is and how he treated his wife.

I didn't lust over him or anything, I admired there loved and longed for something like that for myself.

The problem was no other man was Hercules.

I distanced myself from him when I started to fall in love with him. He was a married man and the time, and I knew my thoughts were dangerous.

I beat myself up for awhile, and convinced myself I didn't deserve love.

Because I fell for someone who was taken.

My guilt came from all my discarded, and mistreated wolves. I paired them perfectly, and some who they managed to be mistreated by their mates, or their mates didn't embrace their wolf nature fully. For a very long time I blamed myself for their misfortune or heart ache, every time a wolf was rejected my heart would break, I would feel what they felt when they were rejected.

It used to be so bad that I would stay in bed all day, depressed, sullen, and sad.

Hercules visited me one day, and gave me comfort.

He told me that the feelings I was feeling were doing me no good, he went on to say that my wolves who mistreated their mate, and rejected them were the ones to blame.

Not me.

I will never forget his words, especially when he said "you gave them the blue print Lina, it's not your fault they didn't follow the instructions. They made the choice to be despicable, and that the blood of the innocents were on their hands not mine"

His words snapped me out of my funk, but he took it one step further. He handed me a beautiful crystal ball, I looked into it, and was able to see all of my happily paired wolves.

"This is what you should be focused on, the good. You can be aware of the bad, but you don't have to let it consume you. You will kill yourself slowly if you do"

The way he treated me that night made me fall deeper in love with him.

That night I made a vow, that I would be more active in my wolves life's.

I made sure that the mistreated wolves found their second chance mate, and I also began to punish those who wronged the rejected wolves.

With doing that I was able to stay very very busy, and it allowed me the perfect excuse to be distant from Hercules.