INEXPLICABLE _(ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ʰᵃˢ ᵗᵒ ᵏⁿᵒʷ, ᵃ ʰⁱᵈᵈᵉⁿ ᵖˡᵃᶜᵉ ᵒᶠ ˢᵉᶜʳᵉᵗˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈᵉˢⁱʳᵉ)

Chapter 50 (Reckless)

"Umm...I need to leave..."

"Stay...please (smooch)"

"It's getting late...." I tried to push him away but he was not moving an inch away.

"You came just before 2 hours ago...I didn't have you enough to myself tonight" he pulled back from my mouth finally.

"Yeah...but it's getting late this time..it is already 2 am and I forgot keys..." I pushed him away to get my shirt from the floor.

"Alec...please, you can always stay here please don't go...." He pushed his naked body to my naked body and whispered seductively in my ear.

"Ahhh.....you are still hard (he rubbed his hips on mine).....and look (he turned around bending a little to show his ass) I am still wet...." Fuck he definitely knows how to bring all the lust inside me to the surface.

Very angry Magnus's face came before my eyes which made me push him away a little harshly I knew he wouldn't mind it because he is a chippo kind of guy who never leaves your home until a taxi has been called.

He pouted and sat on the edge of his bed. "Listen....I do have people who care about me and I am yes, answerable to them... my dad called earlier I didn't take his call because I was too busy fucking you...so please just understand and let me leave" I wore my clothes.

"Is this because of your boyfriend?...." Cale asked while putting on clothes.

"What boyfriend?" I asked while searching for my car keys.

"That gorgeous Asian man...who is always with you? he is your boyfriend right?" He turned to look at me.

"What??? No, he isn't my...boyfriend..." how can someone think like that Magnus is my roommate, and well yeah I do things with him, but that doesn't mean he is my boyfriend. He is worthy of someone better and something so much more than labeling him as a boyfriend.

"And...keep your eyes to yourself alright?......" I warned Cale, no one should look at my Magnus in that way.

"...why? He has a pretty ass....I would have fun with...." Before he could complete his sentence "Stop!!!........don't..." I know I sounded a bit angry but I knew what he was saying further that filthy mouth needs to stop talking.

"Man!!.......alright....chill!... I have you anyway...you are the hottest you know...your hot ass, your strong perfect abbs (he came close to me and traced them with his cold fingers)...your super delicious...."(his finger was moving towards my crotch before it reaches there I grabbed his finger)

"I gotta go" I rolled my eyes and began walking towards the door. "Alec!..... I will miss you" he said making me turn towards him, I smiled at him and left.

It's been two weeks since I started hanging out with Cale and his weirdly comforting friends. I didn't yet realize what exactly was comforting about them or Cale but part of me wants that zone. I and Magnus have been on 'on and off' mode for days we had many fights these past weeks and some severe arguments I made him cry several times and made several apologies but I know... I know that I am damaging him and my relationship with him but I am tired of fighting against my true personality.

It has always been a challenge for me to understand people that is the actual reason why I don't have a huge friend circle and social life it was always Jace who used to take care of all my needs when we were best friends he changed so much right after we got into a relationship which was so much of a shock for me than a surprise because I changed along with him not In a good way. And then there is Magnus, I believe now that he is an angel descended on the earth to transform my life but the demon inside me is fighting him too hard which is deeming his light along with mine.

He stopped asking me about my whereabouts. He stopped expecting me to behave around him, he stopped smiling when I was with him, he stopped expressing himself to me and I fear he stopped being himself around me anymore. But he does plate my food with him, he puts my dirty clothes in the washing machine with his clothes, he arranges my messy wardrobe when I am not around he saves dinner for me with dessert at night whether I eat it or not, he still cares about me like he always has. My bed stopped smelling like him, I....stopped smelling like him anymore. I feel disconnected from myself, from him.

Will I ever be more mature enough to be a good valued human?

It's a sad, pathetic part of me.

Very sad.

And I am too helpless to change it.

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A/N: It's a great apology in advance from me dear readers because the coming chapters are going to be so painfully intense as the story is coming to an end maybe further chapters will be too lengthy so bear with me. I intentionally dropped this small chapter now because there will be so many twists and turns in coming chapters please do let me know in the comments which parts you liked or felt its getting too fast or too slow. Thank you so much for reading my story.