Opposite Attracts - Lynn Loud Jr

Chapter 20 - We fell in love in October

Lynn's POV :

I don't know what kind of lesbian spirit took over me but Holy shit I just kissed Estella Woodsen.

On purpose.

I hadn't fully comprehended what I had done till I felt her lips on mine for a full 10 seconds.

When I finally wrapped my most probably concussed head around the fact that I was kissing someone, more precisely a girl, out in the open on the streets where everyone could see with no consent whatsoever, I pulled away abrutely. I was already plotting on how I would wipe her memory but before I could say anything, she dragged me back in.

We only ripped apart when we needed to breath, I clung onto her top and dragged her right in again, earning no contradictions or sings of discomfort whatsoever.

It was the best thing that had ever happened to me, she was nice and warm and perfect and I was-

Hold up

Oh my

I was a faggot.

The girl infront of me smirked and that might've been enough to pull me out of any trance I was currently in the process of falling into.

One thing led to another in order for us to currently be sat in her room with a rambling Estella and a Lynn who was trying her best not to shut her up again and actually focus.

(‼️PLAY WE FELL IN LOVE IN OCTOBER BY TV GIRL FOR ABSOLUTE KICK ASS EXPERIENCE‼️)

Until

"Lynn, what the fuck are we?"

Those were the six words playing in the back of my mind and patronizing my every thought.

The no filter answer was 'I don't have a clue but I'd do anything to be your lover I'm like madly inlove with you but also madly confused because I thought I was aroace and I previously felt like I'd put up more of a fight against my sexuality in question but I actually don't mind openly being your girlfriend so I don't fucking know'

But I couldn't say that, could I?

There was a long pause and a shift in the air before she spoke again.

"I always knew I was bad with feelings and this just confirmed all my previous thoughts because that was the most fucking adorable and genuine thing anyone has ever told me but I can't react for shit."

My brain took a moment to process what was the context behind what she was saying before it clicked.

Holy fuck I had just said that out loud.

My eyes widened at the realisation and I felt like it wad actually possible to drown in embarassment before asking myself if it was really that bad.

I mean Estella was pretty cool with it if the wide smile trespassing her features was anything to go by.

"Then don't."

"Huh?"

"Don't react."

She barely had time to fully arch an eyebrow before I pulled her back in, and after that, it was like skies blended with seas and nothing but the girl infront of me existed.

It wasn't like anything I'd ever experienced before. All my life, I felt physically incapable of loving somebody as my person. I felt like I was falling behind.

Sure I loved my parents, siblings and friends, but I wasn't an idiot and I knew I'd only ever felt platonic love.

Today was the first time I'd ever felt my heart flutter and butterflies in my stomach, tho I had come to terms with myself long ago but was too stubborn to admit it.