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rant/vent about school

As I'm writing this I'm supposed to be working on my Math hw, the Social Studies hw I didn't do and got a detention for and some shitty English crap.

School is literally killing their students mentally. Like I cannot go to school one single day without feeling stressed the rest of the day. I've had so many mental breakdowns inside school itself that atp, I wouldn't be surprised if I had one tomorrow. I feel like absolute shit no matter what happens. But hey, at least these smelly gringos give two flying fucks about bullying so that's that.

To be honest, I'm not even mad I got the detention but my dad nagging me about it just pisses me off so much. Like I'm sorry there are certain classes that am not good at? I'm sorry that I am not as good as other people? I'm sorry that you expect me to be the next child prodigy? I'm sorry that you feel the need to compare me to my brother? I'm sorry that I didn't do the work not just because I'm lazy, but because I'm literally so stressed I cannot even go without moving from one place to another and cursing literally everyone and everything?

Like if teachers don't make the lesson interesting, how do you expect me to find the motivation enough to actually do the work? I get it's my responsibility to stay put and do it, but it's fair I get so fucking depressed bro.

And I don't get why parents act as if just because we get one detention or miss a day of school we'll automatically end up doing drugs or dropping out or just straight depend on prostitution. Like if you want an actual reason for you to be mad, I'll gladly get expelled if you think detentions and referrals/remissions are THAT bad- 💀

Now, if you're a horrible student who gets these frequently, well that's on you homie.

I ended up just crying my ass off until my vison started to kill me and my head pounding like fuck. I'm just listening to music while painting my nails cause I'm so done right now.

And that's another thing. Here they don't let us paint our nails or do our make-up or even wear a simple necklace/bracelet/ring. I get the make-up rule and I completely agree with it cause it's a bit stupid to be wearing make-up as a student to school unless you're a teacher, but me wearing nail polish or any type of jewelry will not stop my from focusing on my work? Nor will it make me learn less. Like I'm not gonna lose brain cells for making my nails preppy 😗

Either way, long story short: school's a bitch. You gotta lose your fucking sanity in order to succeed in life and it's not even fun most of the time.