•Innocence•

•68• Pregancy Hormones •

Leonardo's POV

I was in a state of bliss as she broke such important news to me after such an intimate moment.

It was almost as though it wasn't the right time to break that kind of news. But I was the one who asked and reminded her that she had something to tell me.

I know I wanted a child but it feels so surreal but, I also feel guilt deep down, because I know I made her pregnant on purpose without even having a conversation with Ara about having a child.

My own selfish needs got the best of me and now I can't help but to think maybe Arabella doesn't want a child yet? Maybe she isn't ready?

A sharp ping pulses through my chest and I stare into her doe teary eyes, she was nervous. And I hope I wasn't the reason she felt this way.

I hope she hadn't been holding onto this secret for too long in fear I would be mad at her.

I couldn't bring myself to be angry at her for something I caused, but after all the things I've done to her and all the small things I've gotten angry at her about, I can't even blame her for being nervous anymore.

A tear starts to fall down her cheek and I hadn't even noticed that she had begun to cry because I was just so fixated on my own thoughts, I forgot to even respond.

"Don't cry Kitten." I use my thumb to wipe the tear away from her cheek, brushing her hair away from her face and behind her ear in one swift movement.

"Why are you crying mi Amour?" (My love) her hand sweaty as she gripped onto my shirt.

"I- I was just so scared to tell you about this." She tried to compose herself but I could tell it wasn't easy for her.

"Baby, I'm here for you were in this together, and I want a baby." I smiled down at her my smile sincere as she now had a small smile poke up at the corner of her lips.

But she still wasn't convinced.

"I'm so sorry baby but I did a terrible thing." I decide that telling her the truth is the best and only option because it's what she deserves and honestly. If I don't, it's going to be a weight on my chest for a long time.

My heart felt heavy as I took in one final breath.

This wasn't like me at all, I don't feel sympathy, I'm ruthless and cunning. That's how you have to be in a line of work such as mine. But I couldn't bring myself to continue living like this and hurt my Arabella over and over again, right under her nose

Her eye brows perk up as she gestured for me to continue but I stayed quiet for another minute as I pondered over my words, I still didn't know what to say or how to word this in the best way possible to prevent the worst.

Her leaving me.

I hold her hand in mine and stare into her eyes, "I wanted you to get pregnant, I made you pregnant on purpose."

She looked taken aback but she didn't look too angry about it yet.

Yet.

She sits up, and faces me properly, adjusting herself comfortably.

"What do you mean you got me pregnant on purpose?" The question sounded sharp but also with a ping of sadness from the betrayal that she probably felt because I hadn't told her about this and it's a thing that should have been discussed together, before the damage was made.

She's so innocent she didn't know what I was even doing finishing inside her or at least didn't understand that she would get pregnant from it.

But unfortunately it needed to be done now because I need to keep my empire. Because all my men even under stand that if I didn't have Arabella pregnant soon, my brother would take over the mafia with his son, who would become the heir instead.