When his last year in college started he had a serious talk with me about being very busy and all. I understood him. Or at least I thought I did.
It started with the word thesis. Alam n'yo na puyatan, always together with his groupmates, and all those stuff. Promise naiintidihan ko ang lahat at feeling ko rin naman ay ganyan din ang mararanasan ko next year kaya lang...
"Please Poopie 'wag ka na magtampo. I know I promised you that we'll watch a movie tonight kaya lang nagtawag kasi ng emergency meeting eh. Promise, I will make it up to you next time."
"Promise, promise. Palagi na lang promise. At kailan naman 'yang next time na 'yan? Sa isang araw? Sa isang linggo? Sa isang taon? Baka naman pwedeng may time frame para alam ko kung gaano ako katagal maghihintay."
Oo na, alam kong iniisip n'yong I'm being unreasonable pero kung panglimang beses nang nacacancel ang plans n'yo, siguro naman you'd understand where I'm coming from. Yes, this is the fifth cancellation. He has been promising to take me out to the movies since last month but 3 movie changes later ay hindi pa rin kami natutuloy. Siguro naman ay may karapatan na akong mag-emote by this time di ba?
"Poopie naman. Please don't be like that."
"Hay naku Grant, 'wag ka nang magpromise sa akin kasi every time na nagpapromise ka ay umaasa ako. At tuwing umaasa ako ay nabibigo lang ako."
"Poopie..."
"Tama na Grant."
"Poopie..."
"Di ba may meeting pa kayo? Umalis ka na. Baka ma-late ka pa."
"Poopie sorry."
"Oo na. Nagsorry ka na. Umalis ka na."
"Basta isusurprise na lang kita."
"Whatever Grant."
"I will. I love you."
"Yeah. Love you."
"Paano? I really have to go."
"Oo nga, di ba kanina pa kita pinapaalis?"
He pulled me to him and hugged me. "I love you, Poopie. Sorry for always doing this. Basta babawi ako sa 'yo."
I feel like crying. Yes, I understand him but I just can't help feeling this way.
"Don't say it anymore, just do it."
"I will."
