Love Me Harder (Contract Series #2)

Chapter 01

Chapter 01

"We can't go this time, anak. I'm sorry," my dad said while he's explaining why they can't go home with mom this month. "Hindi kami pinayagan ng boss namin to have one month leave. Pasensya na."

I stopped myself to rolled my eyes with them. After all, what's new? I was used to feel alone. Doing things in my own and it seems like fighting for my own survival everyday.

"Yeah. That's fine. Ano bang bago," bulong ko sa last sentence pero I'm sure they heard enough.

"I'm sorry talaga, anak. Babawi kami next time," sabi naman ni Mom habang pinagmamasdan ang disappointment sa mukha ko.

Ngumiti ako ng pilit habang nagsusuklay ng buhok.

They both decided to went abroad to have a job while leaving me here in this fuck up country. Kung saan lahat na lang ng bilihin ay napakamahal. Golden era who?

My parents actually asked me to go with them, but since nag-aaral pa 'ko non, I didn't agreed with that idea.

Buti na lang at grumaduate na 'ko ng college at least less stress for me. I don't waste their money because I graduated with flying colors—cum laude—which is something I am proud of.

Iginapang ko 'yon. I work hard for that.

Lumaki ako na kapag may gustong makuha, kailangan mong pagpaguran because you can't always get what you want.

Or maybe because I wasn't born with a golden spoon in mouth, if I want something, I need to do my very best to climb and get that.

If I had a choice, I will leave this country but not for now.

Gusto kong may patunayan. Gusto ko na hindi isipin ng iba that in my age, my parents still supporting my needs.

I need to make my own money. Hindi na ako bata at hindi na sila bumabata para laging suportahan ang gusto ko.

"We send some money on your bank account for your allowance. Just check it out."

They said they did that to support me. Totoo naman. They can give me money—support me financially, but I don't need material things in this world. Kailangan ko sila, ang oras at pagmamahal nila. That's all I want.

Tumango na lang ako at pinatay ang zoom video matapos ay nag-asikaso sa pagligo. I also send them a message that I'd lost my connection that's why the call ends.

Pinigilan ang sariling maiyak.

I used to feel nothing, I also mastered a bitch rest face towards other people. Para protektahan ang sarili ko at sa mga taong gustong manakit sa'kin emotionally.

I trained myself not to care to what other people say, it doesn't matter anymore. Whether you do good or bad, they still talk behind your back and say bad things against you.

I wiped my tears that's forming on my eyes.

You need to focus, Janine. You prepared for this and this day can't be ruined.

I have scheduled interview to one of the known corporate company in the country. I was wearing a formal attire, black pants and white top with a lame black coat.

Maaga akong lumabas ng condo at dumiretso sa parking area para sumakay sa kotse. My dad bought this last year, as a graduation gift. I told them not to do it but they don't want me to spend my time commuting all day. Malaking tulong na din kahit papano. Hindi hassle sa'kin. Dahil nung wala pa akong kotse, ilang oras akong naghihintay para lang makasakay. In the end, I'm always late in my class.