Alive

Can You Handle it?

August

"Wassup witchu'. You good"

"I just told you I was Aug stop stressing it." Lani sighed

"I'm lookin' right at you, and you're not there"

"What are you talking about"

"I fuck witchu'. You touch my spirt in a way that nobody else can and vice versa so I know when you aren't in the right state of mind. Na' tell me what you feelin. I'm not asking this time either"

"I feel like I'm not good enough for you" she mumbled

"What?"

"Nothing"

"I'm not lettin' this go"

"and I'm not talking about this"

I was gon' wait a minute to address it to her but she's stubborn as hell and won't say anything to me until I speak on it.

"Why would you think that shit Lani?"

"Think what?"

"Oh we playin' stupid now?......... You know what, fuck it."

"Stop acting like that. I purposely said it quietly because I didn't want you to hear it. I can't explain how I feel it I just do."

"Why does my mom pose a threat to you? Are we in this relationship for her or us? Let's be realistic now..... You know you're good enough for me, I've never had better. Sometimes you just gotta let God handle all this above you. Shelia is not above me nor you so she can't control anything that goes on with us. Now let it go."

"I'm still trying to find myself, let alone a soulmate. I feel like we're one in the same but then again I feel like I'm just that girl that brought you back to life. I don't want you to be with me just because I saved you, I want you to be here because you genuinely love and care for me."

"Why are you lettin' her bring you to this? Don't I make you feel alive? I know I treat this like a whatever thing but trust me girl this shit is everything to me. We've got that synergy, you take my heartbreak away. All these other hoes don't seem to add up, the way you do. Honestly I don't say it enough but you complete me."

"Forreal?" She said like I was lying to her

"Duhhh, Girl you wearin' that loyalty, that's why I fuck with you tough. You're the only thing that's keepin' me sane, the only one I let put me back in my place. You saved me when the world brought me to my knees. I know I got my problems but I was counting on you to stick with me. So for you to think you ain't good enough because of one person's opinion is stupid as hell. Fuck what she talking about. Did I go home with you or her?"

"With me"

"Exactly, now get over hea'"

"You are driving, how do you want me to do that, can't get no closer than we already are"

"Oh really?"

"Wait, why are you pulling over?"

"Come hea'"

"Aug please"

"It look like I'm playin?"

She finally moved closer and let her guard down