the FEAR
envelops me like a....
i don't know what
but its not a blanket
i'm so scared
my fear drops like a large wrecking ball
and the wrecking ball
tears through the bottom of my stomach
and the wrecking ball is on fire
the fire
spreads throughout my body
it burns.
it's a fear so powerful
that nothing else i try to do will distract me
for years
it hadn't surfaced
i suppose i ever even knew it was even there
fear can be sneaky like that
i
feel
so
helpless
helpless
helpless
knowing there is nothing i can do
or possibly say to myself
because there is no denying
this rational fear.
