One Night Stand With A Stranger

The morning disaster

Nandini's pov

I felt the sun hit my face as a small breeze blew in there was also a hard body next to me i could feel hard rock abs slowly i opened my eyes than i realised my state i was naked in front of a stranger I had a sudden wave of fear and I felt evil and that I should be punished, At this point I was feeling very sick i was in half conscious state last night but . When he finished, I never felt so violated or so disgusted. However, at the time, I didn't think of it as rape but yet i felt disgust with it tears came out from my eyes
I lost my virginity with a stranger . Last day everything seemed perfect but where i land up myself in night and it was definitely a nightmare but now I beat myself up for it . . I just can ' t get over the fact that I ' m no longer a virgin. I feel like the nastiest human being in existence , because I am no longer pure . I feel like my value has decreased so much , that no other man would ever want to love me and marry me. Now I ' m just like everyone else and I ' ve lost my greatest weapon .. .I feel lost without it and I . I know where the guilt is coming from, but I simply cannot stop beating myself up over it i mean in a relationship with maddy or here i lost my virginity with a stranger what i will tell him
. It was the only relationship I ' ve ever had in my life i have no in my life what if i will lost maddy too but i can't hide this from him i need to tell him
Everything that has happened has happened , i can ' t change the past , and what has happened , couldn't have happened any other way. Sometimes we have to accept the turning of the scales as "life " .
I need to accept this
I Lost My Virginity With A Stranger !
I grab my clothes and wore them i glanced at him
He was at no fault but still somewhere deep down i my heart i want to hate him for taking my virginity away from me
Or i should be grateful to him he saved my life
I don't know what to do i came out from the cottage as i thought to leave before he wakes up i didn't had the courage i can't face him
I came out from there i was searching for a taxi soon i found it i sat inside or left him a stranger manik malhotra i lost my virginity with him
I don't think so i am going to meet him again. He is just a mere stranger
"Yeah who took your virginity "a voice rang in my mind Sin is sin and i committed a sin
Sure , there are guys out there looking for a virgin and won ' t have it any other way.
"Now maddy will leave me but i can't hide it from him i can't cheat on someone "tears formed in my eyes and they made their way i felt helpless at that moment
. I don't know how to fix it
I continuously beat myself up over it That make me feel even more worthless. I know because I feel more worthless because now I am not a virgin
I came out from the taxi and moved inside my hostel

"Navya "i called her
"Nandu where were you last night tera phone bhi nahi lag rha tha tu office me bhi nh thi me kitna dar gyi thi "she questioned me the mention of last night was enough to break the emotions inside me i crashed myself in her arms and i cried my eyes out
"Nandu what happened kya hua tumhe ro kyu rh ho "she asked while patting my back my sudden break down scared her
But i didn't reply still i was crying in her arms i hugged her more tightly i just need someone
"Nandu please calm down or tell me what happened to you tu ro kyu rahi hai "she forcefully broke the hug and made me sit on the bag she cupped my face and wiped my tears

"Nandu ab bta kya hua "she asked
"Navya last night i lost my..."i couldn't complete it again i burst into tears
"Last night what nandu hua kya "she asked my out burst or emotional break down scared her to the death but i can't help myself

"I lost my virginity last night"she was shocked with my confession
"Someone raped you "she asked
"Its worst than rape i can't blame him "i said while crashing myself in her arms once again
"Nandu tell me everything hua kya stop crying "she asked tears came out from her eyes too
I told her everything she was horrified and shocked with this sudden incident happened with me
"Navya maddy will leave me he will think i cheated on him i no longer pure no one is going to respect me i lost my everything" i said whatever came in my mind