pure mush from this point forward. hate will not be tolerated, please remember that this is just fiction. also dedicated to the wonderful castawaycal for helping me out and just being great
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Ruby: YOU ARE MY SUNSHINEEEEEE
Ruby: MY ONLY SUNSHINE
Ruby: YOU MAKE ME HAPPYYYYY
Ruby: WHEN SKIES ARE GREY
Luke: You are the cutest little thing
Luke: Damn I love you
Ruby: I heard you were having a bad day:(
Luke: Who told you? Michael?
Ruby: Ashton. sometimes he acts like your big brother tbh
Luke: I know he does
Luke: Lol
Ruby: ...so are you gonna tell me what happened?
Luke: It's embarrassing :-(
Ruby: I'm the last person in the world who would judge you. you can tell me I promise
Luke: I started crying while songwriting today
Luke: In front of our manager and the whole band and a bunch of other people too it was humiliating
Luke: We were writing this song and it's supposed to be super sentimental and slow and stuff and I just couldn't stop thinking of my ex. Every time I'd suggest something it would make things even worse. I had to leave and drink some water in the hallway while they finished the song
Ruby: Luke oh my god I'm sorry
Luke: I'm such an emotional heartbroken mess
Luke: Fuck I'm going to cry again
Ruby: Luke please don't I don't want you to cry
Luke: Too late now.
Ruby: do you want to FaceTime? I'm really sorry
Luke: No I don't want you to see me like this
Luke: Fuck I just miss her so much you know? I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone else. I can't even get girls to give me their real phone numbers
Luke: I feel so incomplete without her it sucks so bad
Ruby: you don't need a girlfriend to feel complete Luke
Luke: But it helps
Luke: I should've never let her go
Luke: She was so beautiful and kind and she made me feel really important
Luke: She just made me so happy
Ruby: you shouldn't need anyone else to make you feel good about yourself
Luke: I'm such a wimp
Luke: The other boys never cry in front of people
Ruby: there's nothing wrong with being sensitive. i think it's sweet
Luke: I can't stop crying I can barely breathe
Luke: I hate myself
Ruby: I'm sorry :( I wish I could be there to hug you or comfort you or something
Luke: Don't even get me started on you
Luke: You are such a perfect human being and you live so far away it breaks my heart
Luke: If you were here I wouldn't be crying
Luke: And now I'm crying harder thinking about the distance
Ruby: noooooo please don't cry. especially not because of me
Luke: I'm just gonna go to bed
Ruby: no no no I'm not gonna let you leave until I know you're okay
Ruby: where are you right now?
Luke: I'm sitting in my room, curled up in a ball under my covers
Ruby: did you already turn the lights off?
Luke: Yeah but the light from the street lamps outside kinda sneaks in and lights up my room anyway
Ruby: that sucks. can you hear anything? are you listening to music?
Luke: Uh yeah calum and Michael are playing xbox in the living room and I'm listening to my chemical romance on my phone
Ruby: that's cool!! I love mcr. what song?
Luke: mama
Ruby: I love that one. are you wearing pjs?
Luke: just sweatpants
Luke: Ruby what are you doing
Ruby: I was trying to calm you down. I used to really focus on my surroundings when I had panic attacks. are you still crying?
Luke: No im just teary eyed. I'm feeling a lot better now actually
Ruby: ok great I love you. you should get some rest now
Luke: Goodnight Ruby. I love you more than you can imagine
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I didn't mean to rush the ending but it's so hard to fix it. a lil characterization tho, oooooh sensitive Luke
how does everyone feel? are you mad or sad or confused? I wanna know
also I love you all!! have a beautiful day/night
