EVERYTHING I'VE NEVER WANTED {Completed}

Part 24

He dropped me at my mother's house.

He waves at me from the car,I wave back.

He's leaving...

I sigh and enter my house.

I know my family cheated me on accounts of this namesake marriage but we all had our fair share of reasons for everything we did.

I smile at mum,forgiveness or being forgiven is the only chance I have myself to save this evening with.

I meet and greet everyone with a real smile this time.

I sit in my room and this time like all times I cry again.

I don't know why?

I don't know what?

I just don't know...I feel like the wall raise high and my soul gets heavy and I feel abducted by my own self and self destructing nature takes over and I lose,lose to everything.

After a very still day late night  he called.

Surprisingly I wasn't asked to return but to spend a week at mum's.

It should be delightful in other cases but at my feet my life has ceased.

The next day,it felt like a year has it been,nothing is moving,here my memories are stabbing me sore.

Like old days at house I sit in my room ,on the window frame.

What has life come to?

I miss him so madly.

His voice,his face,his words,his eyes.....him...just him.

Just Akbaran.

My phone vibrates in my hands.

I step in real world again.

Zabrij.

"Salaam"

I answer fixing my voice.

"Seher what are doing?"

He's been such distraction from Akbaran,I realize as he speaks.

"Nothing really.."

"Oh well, go out,go to your friends,they might be dying to see you;just as I am"

Why does he do this?

"No. I had only two friends, actually only one and she's in Boston"

I said firmly cause Rose isn't my friend anymore.

"No you still have a friend I know, get ready we're going out,I'll pick you in ten"

I sigh as the phone cuts off.

Better for me.

These memories are chasing me down and low in that dark pit again I know I can't rise off.

So we are at this restaurant and he's successful ordered my share as well.

I smile at him.

He proudly raise his shoulders.