'It's either you or her! Choose' the man shouted
'Louis don't....' I said
'Emma I promised you I would never let anything happen to you. And im going to stick by my word' he said and stood in front of me
'No louis please' I cried
'Times up' the man said and pointed the gun towards Louis
'Emma?' he said
'Yeah/'
'I love you' he said and before I knew it the gun was shot and Louis was on the floor
'Louis!!!' I shouted I fell to the ground next to his body and tried to wake him up
'Louis please! I love you'
I shot up and looked around and realised I was in my bedroom
I sighed and fell onto my bed realising it was yet again another nightmare
I looked towards the lamp and saw the picture of me and Louis at prom
I smiled and remembered the memory
I heard crying and I got out of bed and headed to Jacobs room
'Its okay mummy is here' I said and picked the baby up and tried to calm him down
Every time I look at Jacob I see his dad in him and it breaks my heart knowing that he's not around anymore and it's going to come to a time where I have to relive the whole thing again when I have to explain to him why he doesn't have a dad
I felt myself getting emotional and I put Jacob down as I remembered the memory of when I and Louis first discussed starting a family together
*flashback*
'We have been together for 4 years, that's gone fast hasn't it?' he said
'Are you not happy?'
'Are you crazy? I love you silly! I want to spend another 80 years with you if I could' he said and kissed me
I smiled 'do you think we will have a family of our own one day?'
'Definitely! It's something I want what about you?'
'Definitely, you would be a great dad'
'I would like a boy first though'
'What would you call him?'
'Jacob or mason'
'I like that' I smiled 'what about a girl?'
'Rose or Charlie'
'I like it' I smiled
'One day we will have at least 4 children'
'4?!'
'Yepp... and after we get married then we can start and then when we have all the children we want we can then renew our vows and get married again this time with the children involved'
'You have all this sorted out don't you' I laughed
'Yeah, and im going to love you more and more each day' he said and kissed me
*end of flashback*
Tomorrow will be the year anniversary of Louis' death, and I can't help but think it should have been me and not him. At that time I knew I was pregnant and before the guys kidnapped us I was going to tell Louis the great news but I never got the chance. Me and louis have been together for 7 years and he was definitely the love of my life and soulmate and I still have so many questions to ask and I wasn't to going to stop till I found them
