In the dark abyss, I stood.
Waiting for someone to come.
Honestly, I didn't feel too good,
And in that pit of loneliness, to death, I felt numb.
Inching slowly towards it,
I knew I was.
But yet, unable to accept defeat,
I was determined enough to not go without an applause.
The survival instinct kicked in soon,
But all my efforts were futile.
Yet, from my place, I wasn't going to swoon,
And so I waited and waited, like a groom down the aisle.
Was I waiting for myself then,
To come pick me up?
Was anyone even going to come in that den,
And protect that yelping pup?
Time passed,
I wondered if I was missed.
I was dwelling in the memories of my past,
Which, for me, ceased to exist.
As I stayed more and more in the dark,
I felt my fear subsiding.
Yes, I felt as small as a quark,
But an important one, in hiding.
I felt my wrath melting away,
My gloom, sucked up by the dull black walls,
My frustrations getting out of my way,
My insecurities, made to fall.
In that darkness,
I felt none of what I was supposed to feel.
The one thought to be evil,
Was the one who healed.
In that solitude, I discovered
I didn't want to go back to the angels,
Because, the one I fell into, was my world,
Even though it was just a dark well.
I was lonely,
But I wasn't alone.
I knew the world was going to disappoint me,
And that is how, on me, it had grown.
As much as I enjoyed my newfound comfort,
There was a nagging thought, a what if,
And as much as I wanted to not go back into that dirt,
Of it, I just wanted a whiff.
With my newfound strength,
I tried to get out.
I knew no one was coming at length,
Because no one heard, of help, my shouts.
Perhaps they pushed me in,
But their plan definitely backfired.
So, on my face, with a grin,
I tried and tried and tried to get out, in spite of being tired...
...And I finally did succeed,
And crawled into her arms,
And opened my eyes and had some feed,
Even though I knew, I wasn't out of the way of harm.
She dropped me,
She dropped me herself,
And, crying, the Earth killed me,
Because I was trying to be myself.
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The nurse said to her father,"Sorry, your baby girl was stillborn."
BINABASA MO ANG
Hiraeth.
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