BABYGIRL | joyri

hold me close (don't go to him)

my heart stops for a second before it continues to beat at a faster pace. i don't know what i'm doing until i realise i'm at the front door and opening it. i feel pain in my chest at the sight of you with swollen red eyes, full of tears.

i wonder if you know that i was the same way for weeks.

"yerim,"
you say with relief,
a smile forming on your sad face.
"i thought you hated me."

i purse my lips, unsure of what to say. what would even be appropriate to say?

"come in."

soon enough we're sitting on my bed,your head on my shoulder as your wipe your eyes. i wait in wonder of what you'll tell me, what you'll say.

"i'm terrible yerim,
i didn't realise how hurt you were..
i forgot he dated your sister."

i swallow hard.

i wonder if you know the real reason i was so hurt- why i am so hurt.

i wonder if you know it was you who did it, you who really hurt me.

"that's- you shouldn't date him."
i say quietly,
"if you have any sense, leave him."

"you know what's weird?"
she replies with a shaky voice.

"i told your sister the same thing."

and i feel as if my heart is being broken again, just like the day she went away. why do you cause my heart so much pain?