Something New

A Tortured Heart

                  Two weeks have passed since Tiffany and Olivia had stopped by to see if I was ok.  My injuries have been healing slowly but at least they were not causing me as much pain as before.  Ellie has been eager to learn how to cook so I have been teaching her and Lucy some simple things to make.   Both have showed progress with Lucy showing more than Ellie but they both were not bad.  However I noticed Lucy tended to get these dark expressions and she would either want to be alone or she would avoid us by going for a walk.  Lucy only said that she just needed some space and when I tried to talk to her about it she distanced herself even more.  I was getting worried about her but I would respect her wishes until it got to the point I needed to step in and help her.  I figured it must be something about her past that was bothering her.  Lucy had told me all about her last week and what her and Ellie are.  Also what her powers allow her to do and why humans feared her so much.

"Hey big brother how long do you think Lucy will be gone?"

"Well last time she was only gone for an hour and a half so I assume about the same.  Your big sister just needs her space that's all."

"Still, Lucy has been avoiding us a lot lately and I don't know why.  Is it because of me."

I didn't have to see her to know her eyes were watering so I walked over to her by the window and picked her up in my arms.  Ellie snuggled against me and she was on the verge of crying, this must have been what her mother did to her and her father.   I walked back over to the couch and sat down rubbing her back to comfort her.

"Now why would you think that, your big sister loves you just as much as I do.  Lucy couldn't possibly be doing this just to avoid you.  Lucy has had a very hard life and sometimes she has certain memories come back to her.  Her emotions are special, they are both sensitive and also numb at the same time."

"What does that mean?"

"It means that if Lucy doesn't take these moments to gain control over her emotions she could become aggressive for the wrong reasons.  Hurt those that don't deserve it and when that's all done she will feel a huge wave of guilt.  Lucy could get into a state of self loathing and will distance herself even more from us."

Ellie's tears began to disappear and she was slowly getting this understanding look in her eyes.

"So Ellie it's our job to support her in this time of need but also not to be over bearing as well.  We want to let her know we are here for her without constantly bothering her.  Like for example if you see Lucy looking down about something; go up and give her a hug but not a long one.  A nice short but genuine hug will be enough to show her you care."

"Ok, I will give her the biggest hug ever when she walks through the door!"

"Remember not a long one."

"Right!"

I couldn't help but smile at the determined expression on my little sister, it was nice to know I wasn't the only one that cared about Lucy.   Speaking of which lately I have been questioning myself on how I really feel about her.  I said we were just friends but I don't know if I believe that.  When I see her I feel so happy and I want to see her smile more often.  Lucy is too beautiful to always be frowning or having a blank expression on her face. 

'There was the day Lucy said she had a dream about me and I actually kissed her, yes it was on the cheek but still the thought of getting the chance to kiss her is something I find myself wishing I could do.  However that is not possible due to Lucy's personality and what happened to her before.  I don't want to put Lucy into that position again.  I would never hurt her but to ask her to give her heart away again after such a disaster...I don't think I could do it.'