Physically Weak, Emotionally Strong.

Anyone else do this?

READ THE AUTHORS NOTE AT THE BOTTOM PLEASE.

At times I find that I, am between converged, crossed roads.
Like, I could just keep walking, look up, and find myself at the next road.
These lingering thoughts in my head that train my sense of mind, they tell me that I'm doing right, that I should keep being kind.

But often too many times, I think I'm all wrong.
I think the world just doesn't know and doesn't even respond.

As if my battles are futile, weak, I try to give up, but that's just not me.
Because I already hit rock bottom, I'm working my way back up.
Because you can't say I'm wrong about choosing the right time to let up.

Does anyone else do this? Where they doubt for a second?
But they push it aside, it doesn't even get a mention?

Cuz it's just that I know, I'm doing right by me.
But I just sometimes need reassurance that...

My kindness is being seen.

I don't think I need help to survive or stay #HopeStrong
I don't think I need advice to make me stick around a while long.
I'm pretty sure I got it by myself.
I just love the feeling of helping someone else.

PLEASE READ

Authors note!
Been a while hmmm?? Yeaah this one was a wee rushed but I think it's still great. Btw #HopeStrong is a tag from this book I'm reading called "the people you meet in real life" by Melissa Ann Hopely. She's such and inspiration. Anyway, I've always noticed how sometimes it's weird to stick up for someone but in the end, you either regret not doing it or become proud that you did it. Ill take pride over regret everyday and Anyday. I know how it feels to be bugged and hurt and have NO ONE stick up for you. Your "friends" just watch or encourage it but in the end of they day, are they really your friends if they didn't do anything? Sometimes, it's the rock bottom situations that help determine who is going to be there for you and who isn't. But at the same time, it doesn't mean retaliate. Doesn't mean get em back. It means, opportunity to grow stronger and wiser. To push the wrong thoughts of getting back, away. Because in the end of the day, they're not worth it and you'd just be a hypocrite. A lot of times, anger clouds logic. Trust me.  I know. Every teenage girl at some point, hit rock bottom and can safely say, "I black out when I'm angry" cuz that's right. You don't see anything when you're mad. And it's not just girls. It's guys too. But you can't say that you legit stop and think and do the whole second step bullying program in a time of urgency. You almost always do the impulse. Which in many cases unfortunately is retaliation. But some people can't retaliate because they're too weak or self aware. Like they know they'd get in trouble. There are people in this world that take advantage of That. Sticking up for someone isn't gonna get you killed (least as far as I know) it isn't gonna make you less of a person because at one point, you needed a hero. Now go be a hero. Don't second guess. Don't think, just do. Our minds set us free but ultimately, can set us up for limitations. Don't limit yourselves.

Love you,
Nancy