Rainy nights, gift from the skies.
Smoky days, gift from our neighbours.
We should learn, like the roses in my garden,
To only open when the sun caresses our faces
Which would be nearly always.
So I set the air conditioning to 23 degrees
And sit in my westernised chair, bedroom, house
You know, all the things we received with two hands like good people should
While they snatched tin from below our belts.
Or else slurp cold cincau in the mamak shop
And eat char kway teow under the tireless ceiling fan.
I used to aspire to command my own wok
But that dream is scattered like the leaves on the streets
Of my gated community lined with canine howls.
My window speaks of water towers, red roofs and barbed wire
Nothing special for a traveller like you.
So walk further out and you might smell a durian stall
Or pass the red scribbles of troll faces on unfinished apartments
Or throw a stone from my private school and see it land in
Narrow houses, caged pigeons, damp bersih 4.0 t-shirts
And the people inside whose 9 to 5 goes to the PM's pocket.
Sometimes it gets too depressing and you need to run
Run three hundred and fifty kilometres to the southern border
And between your shuddering gasps and thudding heart
Hear and smell the sea.
I, clad in baju kebaya embroidered with the colours of our land,
Will see my mother in her cheongsam
Across the border where both
Our best friends and worst rivals reside.
But South is tame compared to North:
Tiger at twelve o'clock and we are the kijang
That dart between the words of our folk tales
We cannot afford to use our tricks between ourselves
We've made secrecy our lover and a cup of milo our best friend
At eight p.m. in the kopitiam because we are, above all, nocturnal beasts
And we like to think that we are the glowing feline eyes in oblivion
And we like to think that we are the kings of the thick blackness of the jungle
And really we want a pink and purple and orange and red sky
But nothing will happen if we block out the sunlight we starve for—
I was always afraid of the dark.
But the night skyline is my polaris
And the twin towers are a nocturnal sun
So it will be fine.
Everything will be fine.
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A/N: Haven't been updating for a while because I've been doing the NaPoWriMo challenge over on my tumblr account (www.mjao7.tumblr.com).
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