Journal [Ryden]

5.

Although I was fully aware that Dallon was horrible, and violent when he wants to be, I didnt know the extent of how capable he was, and what he would do. I never would have thought Dallon would have forced me, but yet again, I dont even know Dallon anymore.

I felt disgusting, and anger made a home in every one of my thoughts, and I was sad.
It was 11:37pm, and I was sitting in the bathtub. It had been a while since the incident, and I've wasted gallons of water, but I didnt care.
I planned to have a shower, to burn Dallon off of me, but I didnt have enough energy to stand up. So I didnt.

Once I got out, I got my notebook. Dallon had gone out, and I thought of walking out. I thought of packing my stuff, and leaving, but I knew I couldnt, because he'll find me.
So I wrote. I wrote what happened, and how I was positive he was cheating, and how I still think I love him, and how I'm so ridiculously in need of help.
Because I was.