Dean's P.O.V.
awkward is the only word i could use for this situation
well awkward and absolutely heartbreaking
but there's nothing i can do
i screwed it up
cas doesn't love me
and he never will now
i scared him away
just like i do to everyone else
cas and i missed our highschool graduation
they mailed the certificate and everything
i didn't mind
i don't think cas did either
i don't have a lot of friends at school
and it's not like i was in the condition of going
sammy graduated to being a sophomore now
i'm so proud of him
my dad is still on his business trip
i'm not mad though
i get it
you gotta do what you gotta do
i walk into the coffee shop seeing jo behind the counter
and no cas
i sigh in relief
i don't feel like having that horribly awkward conversation with cas again
i know hes been avoiding me lately
and it's starting to piss me off
he wanted this
he didn't want us to be together
he wanted us to be friends
and now we can't even talk to eachother?
if he wanted me out of his life he could have just said so
i'm tired of thinking about it
i just want this stupid situation to end
to either become friends with cas
or
continue this awkward situation
i didn't want either of them
i love cas
i know that now
unless i'm just stupid and have no idea what i'm talking about
i'm not going to fight for cas
if he doesn't want me, then that's his choice
not mine...
"hey dean, sorry, cas isn't here today" jo says pouring my cup of coffee
i look at her a little confused
"why, do you know?" i ask her
cas may not care about me
but i still care about him
"no, he never called in, i just covered for him, assuming he slept in or something, it's happened to me a few times" jo says chuckling
i chuckle a little, fidgeting with my hands under the table
"the usual?" she asks
i shake my head "not today jo, i'm not that hungry"
she frowns at me
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Why? (Destiel Highschool/College/Coffee Shop AU)
FanfictionNerd!Cas and Bully!Dean Castiel Novek and Dean Winchester were the best of friends, but Castiel did something to Dean that made him hate Castiel since 6th grade. Then Dean moves away and they meet again 4 years later in a coffee shop, they are both...