i watch you
as your skin begins to look like a blank slate
seven months ago you would've hated who you are now.
and you try
to do normal things like eat a bowl of cereal
or watch tv.
"svu is on"
cool, i haven't watched it in weeks
cause it reminds me of how you were
making jokes at a 44 inch screen
feet up on the coffee table
with a pillow underneath them
while i wrote songs about absolute nothingness
i sit down
at the dining room table
you've barely touched the food i've made
and i know i'm a shitty cook but please just bare with me
for now
you told me "sixteen is too young to be thinking about leaving town."
but i'm going to college,
i'm gunna be a surgeon,
figure out what the fuck has happened to you
cause everything makes me think of how you were
making jokes at a 44 inch screen
feet up on the coffee table
with a pillow underneath them
while i wrote songs about absolute nothingness
and hoped for the best
i saw it coming
but nobody else did
and nobody believes the teenager
when it comes to big decisions
this isn't simply getting older for you
this is me making myself sick trying hard to figure you out
this isn't simply you growing older
this is me growing up without
a clue what has been happening lately
regarding your safety
i've called all your doctors
they all fucking hate me
they won't tell me anything
they won't tell me anything
they won't tell me anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
but they don't shut up
YOU ARE READING
let bartlet be bartlet / i promise... & playing with lighters
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