amelia, you got me?
i've been up all night
and i swear i'm going crazy
without you here
i can't believe it's been a year
amelia, how are you?
lately i've been locked up in my bedroom
with my dog and my cat and the issue is that i have no aspiration to leave
because i've been having those dreams again
the ones where i wake up scared shitless
cause i saw you
and for twenty eight minutes i know you still exist
amelia, are you following?
i've been losing my voice from screaming at a mirror
and it's becoming clearer now that i'm not getting over you how i should
amelia, i'm frightened
because i can't go back to that place
i deleted the pictures of us cause i could never manage to look at them the same way but i want them now
cause it's the best i can get
without getting wrapped up in my own head
this year, you'd be a freshman,
but instead
you're gone
and i'm left.
screaming obscenities in my basement
and i've been sleeping less and less
because i'm so scared to death but of what?
seeing you again or never seeing you again?
because for a second longer you'd existed
and typically i'd turn to you scared shitless
i wonder somedays if you miss this
if you miss us at all,
or if you're even listening
YOU ARE READING
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