Addict [boyxboy]

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How could I have been so stupid?

How?

A question that I always end up asking myself when it comes to him
And this time was no different

I thought he had changed

I thought we could work it out

Over come the bumps in the road of our relationship

Well that's what he told me at least
I don't know why I believed all of the conventional lies but I did

I always did .

But in the end he was the same beautiful, charming, manipulative, cheating person he had always been

We couldn't work out all the problems that came with being in such a toxic  relationship

And the bumps in the road of our relationship were in fact potholes.
Made deep enough to fit all of our arguments, all the sleepless nights, all the 'I'm sorry's and the 'I forgive you's, all the people he cheated on me with, all the reasons we weren't meant to be together.

But I was still hopelessly in love with him
And I hated myself for it.