Addict [boyxboy]

[3]

That four letter word.
Capable of bringing two people together
Motivating us to go out and change the world
Blinding the weak.

I loved him.
After everything he put me through
I loved him
He didn't love me back
That much I knew.
But I was so desperate to feel what so many others got the chance to feel, I wanted him to want me. He knew that, used it to his advantage...

I walked in on him and someone else
Thought I'd surprise him and we could watch movies
Cuddle on the couch
The same couch he was kissing someone so passionately on
Shirts and pants scattered

The key to his apartment fell from my hand and hit the floor just as my heart broke for the millionth time since I met him

I ran completely ignoring how amazing my name sounded coming from his lips,
I ran not sticking around to hear his brilliant excuse
I ran until my lungs ached begging me to stop
Then I walked the rest of the way home with rain soaking my clothes and tears staining my face

How could I have been so stupid?