MONSTA X (Various x Reader)

Reason (Kihyun x Reader)

A/N: Okay. This one is probably the closest to what is happening in my life. Probably the thoughts of suicide.

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Ever since you were a child, you've been bullied and thrown down. When people hang out with you, they just use you because your father is rich. You can't really rely on anyone else but yourself but instead of being strong, it made you feel lesser of yourself to the point of wanting to commit suicide; but you met someone who gave you meaning to live on. He was he best thing that ever happened to you but you had to go your separate ways because he lives in Korea and he was only in the (Name of Country) for a short period of time. You weren't able to ask for his phone number and that you didn't look for him, you didn't even said that you fell in love with him in that short period of time and because of that you continued your life in a way party girls would've done, so you won't think of committing suicide. Since, in your heart and mind, you're hoping to still meet him. 

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"_____________!" One of your so called friends called you.

You look at her and gave her a smile you've practiced to please people. "Yes, Sachi?" You said.

She giggles and clings on your arm while saying, "Let's go to the club later?"

You smiled at her and excitingly said, "Sure!" Even in the back of your mind you were thinking that she probably asked you because you can pay for the bills.

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You and Sachi agreed to meet at the club at around 9 in the evening. You were already on your way. You don't know but you were in a good mood today, that it feels like something good will happen.

You arrived at the bar exactly 9 in the evening, most of the time, you arrive later than usual because you want them to wait since you're the paying but this was the first time you arrived on time. When the people you were hanging out with saw you, they were shocked.

"___________!! That was new. You arrived on time." one of the guys said.

You smiled and said, "I'm just suddenly in the mood, I probably should go and buy some drinks" I skittered away from them and went towards the alcohol bar. I don't know but I felt like being alone but I'm in a good mood.

"1 rum coke!" I told the bartender as soon as I arrived at the bar.

The bartender smiled and immediately got me one. I was about to drink when I heard someone called me from behind.

"___________"

I thought it was one of the people I hang around with. So, I turned around and saw that it wasn't. It was someone I wouldn't dare to forget. It was him.

"K-kihyun?..." You asked.

He smiled at you as he moves closer. He was just a bit taller than you that's why you felt more embarrassed whenever he's close.

"How have you been?" He asked as he stands beside you on the alcohol bar.

You were just about to answer him when this so called friend who invited you in this club to use your money came to you and said, "Wow! As expected of you, my friend. You already got your hook for the night." Your eyes widen, he can't know that. He'll hate me. You look at him and saw his face darken; you lost all hope to explain and ran away from him.

Kihyun will hate me, you thought to yourself. He won't be able to accept you now. How can you even tell him that you love him. You told yourself as you squeeze your way out through the crowd. You start to overthink too much that it leads to conclusion of killing yourself because the only hope that could save you probably hate you right now.

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You're out of the club now, you started running with tears in your eyes because your life is no good, your parents are divorced, your mom left you when you were a child, a father who's always absent, fake friends, and hated by the guy love whom you haven't seen for many years.

You ran until you were in the highway, the single for the cars is on go, you weren't hesitating a single step in running until your left foot was about to stop the road but then someone pulled you behind back hugging you as you both collapse on the side walk.

You can hear the persons ragged breathing as he shouted at you like a mom, "are you going to kill yourself, ___________!!"

You know it's him and you can't lie right now at him, so you nod as you cry.

"Aish! Wae?!" Suddenly he asked you in Korean as both of you stood and you facing him.

You giggled because he didn't changed. He speaks in Korean whenever he's frustrated. You answered him while trying your best not to cry more, "My life is not important to anyone, Kihyun. My mom left me. My dad don't care. I have fake friends. And..."

"And?" He asked.

"And... You probably got an idea of what I've been doing...probably judged me and now hated me for it..." You said as you start to cry again.

He gently wipes your tears and gently said, "__________... I don't hate you... Why would I go here if I do?... "

Suddenly his face became dark again and said, "I hated myself because I wasn't there for you...I had to give you up to chase my dream...and now that I achieved it I can't stay still and looked for you..."

You cried more at what you heard but smiled gently at him and said, "More than anything... I want you to be happy. I'm glad you achieved your dreams, Kihyun."

Suddenly his eyes are on you, sad and happy at the same time. He hold both of your hands and kisses both of your wrist as he said, "Stop what your doing with your wrist and this life, _______. I know...you're still cutting...you didn't stop wearing long sleeves..you will stop okay? I'm here. You're not alone. Also..."

He stopped talking and blushed. "I... I love you... Ever since we met... __________.."

Your eyes widen as tears began to drop again. You smiled in those tears and just hugged him tightly making him blush more but hugged you back, tightly and smiling with that eye smile of his when he heard you say what he's been wanting to hear.

"I love you too, Kihyun Oppa!"

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Okay!! I'm sorry. I don't know this one is any good. I've been too happy this past two days I'm having a hard time writing. That's weird right? Hehe.

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