Dying Flowers

Daughter

*this is miss rina's past of ' Pillow ' *
I am Rina. i am 17 now. i study in a co ed school here. my school is the best school in town and im the best student. I always get straight As for every subject. i passed all my tests in flying colours. my life was practically perfect.
but
' RINA! I TOLD YOU DONT TOUCH MY FUCKING NECKLACE! '
that night, i hardly slept as i felt the stinging pain on my legs. they were now filled with bruises and cuts. my legs had to withstand it all. for weeks and months every single day. ive always slept with a stinging pain on my legs. and thats when i met.
Ahmad.
the guy in my accounts class. he has black spiky hair, little freckles and little crooked teeth. hes gorgeous. he also lives next door.
living in a cheap flat its not that hard to sneak out. occasionally ill sneak out even with the pain on my legs just to meet him by the bench at the nearby park.
i instantly fell in love with him.
my relationship with my mother, didnt feel anything anymore.
shes a mother that likes to hit.
she didnt give me anything.
she gave me a painful childhood and thats it.
even when i passed all of the exams without thinking. she'd still hit me with that belt of father's. my father left us since i was a baby. the reason? me. explains it right? my father hates daughters. he said he wanted a son but my mum tried and tried. but.. after i was born, my mum couldnt be pregnant anymore.
my father disowned me. and left.
my mum blamed me for everything.
everything.
i only had him
i only had Ahmad by my side.
hes my life. my hope. my desire to live.
its him.
' Rina, come to the park bench! '
as i saw the message popped up i quickly got up and went off.
when i reached the park bench Ahmad came to me and confessed
i dont believe it.
everything i want
everything that i hoped for
is it really coming together?
is this my prize for being so patient with my life?
I stood there and hugged him
hugged him so tight and cried
until
.........
i woke up at the bench.
my tears were still there
i was laid down
half my clothes were off and a red mark on my face
things couldnt get any more worse
and thats when my mum came.
my mum locked me in a room
' YOU SLUT! '
' YOU SHOULD DIE! '
' YOU DONT DESERVE LOVE '
i killed her.
i killed my mum.
i strangled her to death that very night.
and stabbed her numerous times on the face.
and stuffed her in a pillow.
her face now, is no longer her face.
her bed.
now all filled with bloody ink.
i laughed as I threw the pillow across the room.
u know what i did next?
i went to Ahmad.
knocked on his door.
with a kitchen knife on my hand.
he needs to pay.
the virginity he stole from me was unforgivable
the moment he opened the door.
i stabbed him in the eye
the blood shot out to my face
and he was screaming in agony
and thats when i dissect him alive
his face was twisted as i pulled out all the
organs in his body
' this is what u get Ahmad '
without any last word
i cut off his ' down there '
the one that made me lost my virginity.
and stabbed his heart.
thats when he actually died.
i stuffed him in a pillow.
and slept next to him along with his organs.
4 months
my belly is showing
i said to my teachers im terribly sick and needed an operation.
i decided to keep this child.
so that
he could live as long as his father did
and ill find him
and kill him
ill give him away
but eventually
ill find him
' miss Rina? '
' you're gonna have a son '
the irony.
' ill name him.... Faiz '