Dying Flowers

Flawless

i was showering. and ive always had this feeling of somebody watching me. from that window. i turned and nobody was there. i guess i was just dreaming. i continued showering and just let that feeling fade away.
after 20 minutes i hear Jen shout my name from her room. ' YEA YEA JUST A SEC JUST A SEC! '
' goddammit Timah, u always spend for almost an hour in the shower come on! '
i stepped out of the shower and went into my room. Wore my usual casual clothing, light yellow top, pastel pink tudung and white pants . grabbed my bag, put on a bit of lipstick, i dont usually wear concealer nor foundation tho so i guess ill skip it. and thats when i felt the same feeling again. like somebody is spying on me. i turned and there was nobody. oh well guess i should head out.
i went passed my neighbour's house, which ive never even talked to decently with. his name is Jason, a chinese guy who spends his all of his time with computers.
maybe...
i snapped myself out of it and just forgot about it. when i was walking to my usual class in USM Penang, everyone gave me dirty looks. looks of... despise, hate , distasteful.  i sat in lunch alone. i sat in class alone. i sat in the library alone. and thats when i heard somebody saying
' cant believe shes acting so innocent in class wth shes a total actress! '
whats going on..
something is wrong.
maybe somebody is spying on me lately.
i told the teacher i wasnt feeling well and went home early.
my face was no longer my face when i stepped into my room
pics of me.
pics of me and
Jason.
my neighbour.
the pictures were glued everywhere.
from my room to the living room.
and my laptop was hanging open
and thats when i saw someone wrote on my laptop with red ink completely ruining the screen
' SLUT '
.....
its been weeks.
months.
my house was being thrown with eggs and flour.
i was bullied in class
i suffered depression and didnt go to some of my classes.
why would anybody do this.
why.
i went into the shower and shouted
and i felt the same thing again.
somebody watching me.
ive had enough.
i stepped out of the shower and looked at my reflection.
from that bright face from months ago
now had dark circles, eye bags and depression written all over it.
i was so angry
i broke the mirror. and kept breaking it until the shards of tiny bits of glass pierced into my flesh. leaving out dots of blood that turned into flows.
im done.
im done for.
i stepped into the shower.
grabbed my shaver.
and ended my life.
in front of the window.
at the same time.
i saw a figure on the other side of my window
Wait.. Jason is out for the month and is on a trip to Japan.
wait...
i cant die yet!
no wait!
my eyes was starting to blur as i used every last strength left of me to reach for the door .
' I NEED TO KNOW WHO DID THIS! '
' I CANT DIE YET '
' NO WAIT '
my screams turned into mumbles
i grabbed the doorknob.
and blew my last breath.
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i grabbed her body and dragged her out.
cut off her pearly flawless skin.
trace it out like a mask.
those days sneaking into that freak show's house was so worth it. And all i had to do was go through the back door.
Her face was all red and skinless. Her flawless skin is now in my hands.
even her dead body still looks beautiful.
i caressed her skinless cheek and her lifeless face until my hands were filled with her blood.
i licked off the blood from my hands.
' sweet '
finally.
i put her skin on my face and started stitching.
the blood coming out from her skin and mine. i didnt care. the pain on my face didnt phase me.
i looked at my reflection.
' no more calling me pizza face '
a messages suddenly pops up
' HEY JEN, ARE YOU STILL DOING UR PLASTIC SURGERY AT DOCTOR SALIM? GOODLUCK! '
thanks.