Stay with me

8

3 months after

Jade

I was awakened by the sound of my alarm. 

My eyes are still very heavy but I had to force myself to open them and stand up, walk to the bathroom and turn this stupid clock off.

I put it at the bathroom every night so that come morning, I'm forced to stand up otherwise I'll just push the snooze button and doze off again.

I struggled to pull myself away from the messy bed and sleepily walk towards the bathroom while picking up the documents scattered on the floor.

I smiled knowing that I fell asleep reviewing these documents which is far better than crying myself to sleep, again.

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The past few weeks had been a struggle. 

Althea had been gone for 3 months now and I still miss her everyday. She's halfway through her photography course in canada and will be back after another 3 months.

Don't ask me how I know this. Did you really think I'll let her go just like that? :)

It's sick, I know. but I can't help it.

She's an addiction.

With Sally's reluctant help, I tried to virtually stalk her. 

I even hired an investigator at some point when Althea could not be found one weekend.

As it turns out, she spent it with a beautiful blonde locked in a cheap motel room.

I kept a poker face when sally broke the news to me. She asked if I still want to continue with the stalking. I said Yes; but quit the top dollar investigators.

I'm crazy but not stupid.

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I turned off the alarm when I got to the bathroom when something on my virtual alarm clock caught my attention.

It's October 3 today; my birthday.

I continued with my usual robotic routine.

I say my prayers in the shower.

Thanking Him for another day and mostly asking Him to keep Althea always safe and healthy.

I dressed up quickly, grabbed my morning caffeine fix and went to the office.

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I anticipated a surpirse from the work place which they did.

I know.

They've been doing this for everyone every year.

But ofcourse I acted surprised, just the same. hahaha.

There were cakes, balloons and party hats.

I couldn't help but feel sad though.

This is the first birthday without her.

Everyone helped themselves with the cake, some had gifts and after a while they're all back at their work stations.

There's a lot of things to be done and a surprise party, regardless of who it was for, can only be accomodated for a while. 30 minutes tops.

I went straight to my office with David and Sally in tow whose helping with the gifts.

"Thanks guys, I really appreciate it." I told them as I settled myself to my chair and started switching on my computer to see my e-mails for the day.