Everything Would Change

Demon Limbs

Mac

I sat at the kitchen counter watching Demi cut fruit and make toast"Dem, I've been eating really well, like I promised, do you really need me to prove it?" while I had been avoiding Demi I had managed to only eat once a week maybe twice, I was down to 90 pounds, I just needed to get to 80 and then I would be okay.

I saw her smirk has she spread butter over the toast "who said anything about proof, I'm just making us a good breakfast" I sighed and ran my hands over my face, getting up from the table, and turned to go to my room."Hey, where do you think you're going, you know breakfast is ready!" mumbling under my breath I tried not to yell at her "I don't want your stupid breakfast, I've worked too freaking hard"

I felt her arms wind around my torso and her breath hit my ear "Baby girl..." I didn't want her to make me feel bad for not eating, I didn't want her to convince me I should eat. I wanted to be skinny, I wanted to fit in for once. "You know you gotta eat...please..." I sighed and nodded, no matter what I said she would make me eat, maybe I'll get lucky and I can just throw it up after.

I sat down at the bench and stared at the piece of toast and banana. How the freak am I going to eat that? I spared a glance at Demi and saw her munching down on her toast, she lifted her gaze and gave me a smile before opening her mouth and sticking her tongue out with a mouth full of chewed up toast "I swear you are the most annoyingly, adorable, disgusting person I have met" I slowly lifted the toast to my mouth and took a small bite, Demi beamed at me, a smile so big I thought it would tear her face in half.

I sat staring at my plate, amazed it was empty and looked at Demi, whose mouth was wide open, and tried not to cry. She saw my eyes glaze over and immediately shut her mouth "Baby girl, you did so so well, I am so proud of you. Let's go watch a movie together okay?"I nodded and slid from the bench not looking at my plate or my stomach.

Demi pulled me over to the couch and sat me down, handing me my unicorn pillow pet we both decided to name George, and a blanket and went to her DVD rack. "What do you feel like watching baby girl?" I shrugged, I don't know why I wasn't using my voice exactly but I think it had something to do with the voices screaming at me to purge, cut and my need to scream. Her eyebrows furrowed and she had this adorable confused look on her face "Okay...how about...comedy?" I shook my head "Horror?" I shrugged, I could go for horror or a kids movie, maybe the Lion King, there is some horror in that "Hmm okay how about Friday the 13th? I know you love the classics" she beamed at me, she's so cute sometimes, I nodded.

Demi came over to the couch and went to sit down the end where my feet were so I quickly moved and grabbed her hand pulling her to sit on my lap. She giggled "You really want me to sit right here? On your lap?" I bit my bottom lip as I looked at her, I needed to open my mouth eventually "I can't get up and...I can't get up if you're sitting on me..." Demi nodded understandingly and moved so her butt was on the couch but her legs were across mine, I slowly leaned forward so I could grab her hand and pulled her over so she was lying on my chest with her legs across me "This is better..." as I ran my fingers through her hair. She hummed in response and I saw her eyes slide shut.

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Demi

I woke with a start, sitting up straight and gasping for air, another nightmare. They've all been the same since that night with Mac, I can hear her screams and I can hear the drips of her blood landing on tiles. I keep running but when I get there she isn't there. She isn't in the bathroom, I rush to the bedroom and the kitchen and another bathroom but she's nowhere. I stand at the stairs screaming for her and I can still hear her screaming from somewhere in the house. I run to the bathroom again, her screams have stopped, and when I get there she's lying on the floor and there is blood everywhere. She's lying a pool of it and when I rush to her and turn her over, still screaming her name, her lips are blue and her eyes dull when she whispers "You should've protected me Demi, why didn't you help me?"