Weight of Living || The Galaxy Cat Sweater {Bastille || Dan Smith || The 1975}

37: Anobrain

no bastille in this chapter sorry to disappoint u

erm there's drugs on this chapter so if you're sensible and blablabla skip it :D oH and i dont really know what happens when you do drugs so i googled a lot of stuff just for curiosity and yeah

anyway i warned you so dont report this pLEASE

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- Matt? - I called quietly as I dazedly walked around the cold, dark house. 

I can vaguely remember what happened.

We talked to Bastille and it was good. We drank, we smoke, we sang some of The 1975's songs. I ate cookies and drank milk, I think I kissed someone, and I cried, and then I fell asleep.

I searched for my phone in the couch and soon found it. I checked the hour: 2:30am. I wasn't sleepy at all. I sat on the sofa and looked around.

''Where are they?'' I thought and decided I'd search for them. I walked over to the kitchen to get some water first.

I wandered around the corridor and looked into the bedrooms; all empty. I visited the bathroom: empty. Through the backdoor, the backyard and even the pool. Empty.

I walked over to the front yard and there were people walking around the street; there were a few standing in front of the gates, looking at me. I looked around and entered the house again. 

I didn't turn any lights on and sat on the sofa. I asked myself where could they be; I was actually getting scared.

Suddenly, I heard people screaming outside; a few seconds later four terribly drunk men stumbled across the door yelling and laughing. I got up and looked at then in their awful state of inebriety. 

- ANNA, HONEY. - Adam yelled and ran to me. He hugged me and I looked at the other guys over his shoulder, questioning them.

- We're gonna use that thing you gave me that other day. - Matt said, tripping over his feet on his way to his bedroom. I thought for a moment. 

''Cocaine.''

I just nodded. 

George approached me and handed me the lemon schnapps bottle he was holding. 

- Thanks. - I sipped a gulp and almost instantly I felt dizzy. The liquid burnt my throat and I felt sore.

- Guess that's too harsh for your young girl throat, right? - George laughed. I looked evily at him and drank a big swig of the drink. My throat was completely fucked by that up and I coughed. - Hey, calm down there, sweetheart. - George giggled, placing a hand on my shoulder.

- GAAAHH. - I whimpered as I felt my body warming up.

- HERE IT IS. - Matt came back holding the pack with white powder. - Are you jo... joining us? - He asked me between tequila gulps.

 - Why not? - I mumbled as we approached him. He lead us to a small dark room on the underground with some cozy armchairs, a sink, a mirror, a mattress, a radio, a television, an old Play Station, video games, and bottles of alcoholic drinks and some drugs on shelves spread on the walls. - How do you get all this stuff? - I asked as I observed the posters of post punk-rock bands on the walls. I looked up and noticed there was a really small window on the corner of the room.

- We have friends. - Ross simply answered. - You. - He called me and I stopped looking around to  look at him. - Tell no one about this. - I nodded. 

Meanwhile, Matt was opening the pack and placing the drug in lines on the small centre table that was there. He started laughing. 

- Who's first? - He looked around as Adam raised his hand. - Adam, come here young lad.

- Yep. - He sat next to Matt. He leaned his head up front and, pressing one of his nostrils, he inhaled half of the first line. Ross did the same.

- Got it? - George poked me. I nodded.

- Kind of. Go first. - He nodded, sat next to the others and did the same as they did. 

Matt called me and I sat next to him. He helped me: he held my hand and explained what was going to happen.

I did it.

At first, my nose was just itching, then it started burning, and it got numb. I started to get really confused, then I felt bustling and fussy. I got the feeling of welfare, strength and power, I wasn't anxious anymore. I felt no pain. It was actually great.

I looked up at them and we were all grinning uncontrollably. 

We turned on the radio and me, Matt and Adam danced as Ross and George played video games. I was jumping a lot and I didn't get tired. We laughed a lot and we started singing as their song ''Chocolate'' came up on the radio. We got tired of the radio and I got my phone. Their album was playing on shuffle. ''Undo'' was playing and we sang it; I fell on the ground, I stepped on broken glass, I hit my head against the wall. No pain at all.

The feeling of being invincibly happy lasted for about 20 minutes. After that, I started to feel anxious and depressed again. I felt discouraged, tired, dizzy. I had hallucintions, and got agressive. If any guy tried to get near me, I'd scream and even throw stuff at them, and I wouldn't look at them.

I kind of lost control at some point. I fell on the ground, screaming. But I saw I wasn't the only one. Ross did the same as me all the way through the experience, except that he was a bit more controlled than me.

I had disjointed ideas. I started to mumble nervously their song ''Anobrain'' when it came up.

''In jeans so new
We should eat one and before too
Man I'm so high
I think I love you

And I was thinking about leaving again
It all depends, are we just friends?
And can you move a little bit if you can
For you, babe it's an anobrain

We take your mom's car to the edge of the town

And we drive, yeah we go 'round and 'round''

My breath quickened and I screamed. I looked at myself in the mirror and my pupils was dilated as fuck. I was feeling electric; I reacted quickly to every small thing that happened. I tried to sleep, but I tossed and turned on the mattress. 

After a long, long time, I started to feel okay again.

''Thank god.''

I can't deny that felt awesome and awful at the same time. 

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