Jade Me and Ella are currently laying on the grass looking up at the blue sky,I really don't know what's with us lately and looking at the sky I think it just helps us think
"Why aren't you and dad speaking?"Ella asks sitting up I sit up and shrug "we are just not as much anymore"I sigh sitting up myself "do you love him you know like you used to?"she asks,I never thought I'd be having this conversation with my eight year old daughter but I am "I don't know El"I sigh looking down
Do I love him?Of course I do he's my bloody husband but do I love him like I used to,god I used to be head over heels for him and now it's just like yeah that's Niall he's my husband
--------------- Perrie "Perrie"Ella says tapping my arm "yeah El"I smile,we're currently all in a restaurant,Ella is sitting on my right and Zayn is on my left to be honest everyone's just scattered but there's one thing that I've noticed,Jade is on one side of the table at the end and Niall is at the other which is weird
"Can I speak to you?"she asks Zayn gives me a confused look but I just nod both of us stand up,she grabs my hand and we go outside "what's the matter?"I ask bending down,it's lucky I wore jeans "you know Zayn?"she asks I nod obviously Ella...
"Yeah El"I smile giggling a little "do you love him like you used to?"she asks I nod,I adore Zayn he's the best thing that happened to me "of course I do"I smile I move my hair out of my face and then she carries on
Niall I watch Ella and Perrie walk out of the restaurant making me a little confused,I look around at everyone there all so happy except for Jade,for some reason I feel awful like I've made her life miserable
I stand up and go to the front door of the restaurant I go to open it and then see Ella standing there with Perrie bending down in front of her I smile a little,there actually quite close "of course I do"Perrie smiles flicking her blonde hair out of her face
"Well I don't think mum loves dad like she used to"Ella says tears in her eyes,my smile drops and I instantly feel bad again,I thought I was hurting and I didn't even think about how Ella feels or how Logan or Jace feel
I walk back in and sit down at the table,putting a hand through my hair,I look at Jade with tears in my eyes her words from the other night repeating in my head "maybe our futures won't involve each other" maybe she was right
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The hardest thing is not talking to someone like you used to
