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Chapter 5

Thoughts

Sarah's POV

I bore into my friend's eyes, silently begging her to agree,
"Okay okay" she sighs. I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding in.

"Hey I'm going to go to the bathroom" Alexi says as she gets up.

"Okay! I'll be here" I laugh.

Alexi turns down the hall and the door clicks behind her. I'm so glad that I am able to talk to her, but she can't know everything. Most of the time everything feels like an illusion. It's hard to decipher what I have lied about and what has actually happened. All that I told Lexi, are true life events. What she doesn't know are the secrets that I've kept from her and Mattie. I don't want to break anyone's heart, that's why I keep to myself. Except recently it's been bubbling inside of me, and I don't know how long it's going to last. There's a connection there...I do feel something for Tyler... I just don't know what. Is it weird that every time I see him my heart stops? I've never gotten that feeling before. Quite frankly I'm scared to discover what it means. Ugh... I wish I could've met Tyler before Mattie started liking him, and before Danny became friends with him, before anyone knew him.

I've never been in a serious relationship before, or have true feelings for anyone. I think I have gotten it mixed between being attracted to someone, and actually really liking or even loving that person. Not saying that I'm in love with him, but definetly falling fast and hard.

A/N- okay I know I know I'm awful and I haven't updated in like forever and I'm super sorry. Junior year was the absolute worst I'm sorry!!!  So I really don't like where this story is headed and am undecided on whether or not to trash it or revamp it a bit....I'll let you know what I decide. But I do have some new ideas that I will shine soon.
I plan to update my reading lists tonight so check those out to find some awesome reads to keep ya occupied. Thanks guys!