The Sadness of Being In Love (Tadaomi Karasuma X Reader)(on hold+editing)

~Chapter 1~

"Karasuma, let's go" I said pulling him outside for recess "y/n i have to study, this is cram school, we both do need to get into jr high you know" he said i pouted "You dont have to ruin the fun, but fine, as long as im by you" i laughed dragging him back inside and taking a seat and getting my books out.

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"Karasuma wouldn't it be funny if we got into the same jr high"I laughed "You have to work pretty danm hard" he laughed that smile i had on my face turned into a frown but back into the fake smile i needed "I will" i said getting my pencils and books out, studying as if my life depended on it, it did, who knows who id be without him.

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"Hey y/n you wanna hang out, i know im col-" Karasuma said over the phone, even if we are in cram school, he still was stone cold "no im sorry, im studying" i said and smiled he could even tell i was smiling over the phone, no matter how young i am, he made my life worth living.

"Im home" my mother said "y/n you home" she said "Yes upstairs in father's office" i said as iI studied, i grabbed another book i had piled up and continue working "Good job, be the girl I always wanted to be" she smiled and shut the door, as i said goodnight to her and smiled.

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"haha, Karasuma we got into the same jr high" i said as i jumped and hugged him, "who would of guessed" he said, with a straight face "Karasuma aren't you happy i'm here" I smiled "Of corse" he smiled back, "Yayyy" I said as I hugged him tightly

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"Hey y/n what are you here, your never here so early" Karasuma said as he walked into the classroom, he's usually here before me, "Studying, don't want to be put in the lowest class do we now" I smiled as I looked up from the book, and showed the bags under my eyes, "Oh midterms are two months away, no need to stress" he said "Wanna score in the top 50" I smiled and continued to what I was doing

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"yayyy, number 24" I said as I showed karasuma my test scores "nice number 20" he smiled and patted my head, "This is our last year of jr high, wouldn't be funny if we got into the same high school" i laughed "You say this every time, and what are the chances" he laughed he had already told me the high school he wants to get into, and i've set my eyes on the same one, but of corse I have to study harder then karasuma, since my brain has to adjust.

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"SAME HIGH SCHOOL REALLY" i smiled as i crashed into Karasuma "Yeah weird" he laughed

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I sat in the classroom without Karasuma, I can live without him, but i'm not who I am without him, I sat in the middle of the classroom, writing down every last speck that the teacher wrote on the board,

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"Your so pretty you know, but yet so lonely why do you study so hard to show the rest of us up even more" one girl in my class said "um no, not at all you've got it all wrong" I tried to explain "you should cut your hair" she said i've never thought of cutting my hair because Karasuma said it was a good look for me, i can live without him right.... right

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"You do everything Karasuma does it pathetic" she laughed

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"Karasuma do you think I should cut my hair" i asked as we walk to school "its not my word to say" he says as he pats my H/C. That night i cut my hair to neck length, when I came to school everyone thought I was a different person without makeup or long hair

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"What do you wanna do when you grow up Karasuma" I ask "A Assassin" he says coldly "Really, i've been thinking the same thing, acing everything leaves you with nothing" I smile, but it quickly fades,

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My hair grew back bye the end of college, and me and Kurasama trained, to be the best Assassins we could be, I had to train harder because of the body I grew up with, the curvy yet weak body type couldn't hurt a fly.

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"Your leaving without me.... but why" I ask as I grabbed his hand but her quickly pulled it away "Its nothing personal, but we have a business only relationship from now on and think we should cut ties" he said coldly "but Karasuma, you cant just leave me just like that" I said as I tried to smile and grab his hand, but he turned around, and left and my world crashed around me, I don't have a tragic childhood like others, my brain has a tragic life

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I grew up to be one of the top assassins, cold blooded, but can act all sweet, and keep that smile on her face, turn into your bestfriend and back stab you real quick, turn into your girlfriend and stab you in the back while your sleeping, keeping that body type, curvy and now yet strong, smart, knows how to weld any weapon you throw at her, as become independent over all.

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"Yes I understand, I will go right in, yes a teacher, peace of cake" I say as i hang up the phone and pack my bag "Oh how i love my job, and oh how i love Karasuma for shaping me into the women I am today, doesn't even know what he did" I laugh