Dark Phenomenon: The Search (ON-HOLD)

Search 3: Nostalgia

Search 3: Nostalgia

"WHAT happened to you?" sinalubong ako ni Fantomina. I turned my gaze at my garb and saw a lot of blackish color of dust upon of it. Dirt.

"Let's just say, I've got in a trouble. But yeah, I'm still breathing." I said. Umupo ako sa desk ko at sinimulang buklatin ang hiniram na libro.

"I think you should clean yourself." she stated and I silently nodded.

Nandito kami ngayon sa tambayan niya. Walang tao sa room kaya tahimik na ikinatuwa ko naman. I don't know if this is an act of befriending me or she just want to have a companion. Trusting someone in the first day of school is not my thing. Sa haba ng taon na nabubuhay ako sa mundong ito at sa dami na ng napagdaanan ko, I learned that you must not drastically trust people who were a total stranger to you. Kahit tapos na ang kaguluhan, dapat ay mag-ingat ka pa din sa paligid. Who knows, may masamang balak pala ito sa'yo. Observe them first. Twist their words and observe their language. Fake people are easy to read, unless they act like a pro. Pero lalabas at lalabas din ang tunay na kulay nito. Dark colors can be easily seen in lighter colors. Makikita at makikita mo pa rin kung sino ang masama at kung sino ang mabuti.

I sighed for the second time. Napansin ata iyo ni Fantomina kaya nagtaas ito ng kilay sa akin. I looked at her and shook my head. She just shrugged and continue what she's doing.

Prodigies. The tallest tower among all the towers in the city. The brightest star among all the stars in the night sky. The greatest among all the greatest. That's how people described them. Marami ang humahanga sa kanila dahil sila ang nasa pinakamataas. Hindi ko maitanggi na malakas talaga sila. I just encountered them earlier. And I couldn't take it away from my mind. That's the first time I feel so intimidate. Sobrang naliit ako ng makaharap ko sila. The way they stare to me, the way they judge me. Biglang nag- shut down ang utak ko kanina. Parang nawala ang kapangyarihan ko dahil sa paraan ng pagtitig nila. Even their breathes seems so intimidating.

"Ano ba talagang nagyari sa'yo?" napatingin ako kay Fantomina. Dahil sa malalim na pag-iisip ay 'di ko namalayan na kanina pa niya ako tinititigan. She's trying to read me even though she's not a mentalist.

"I don't understand you. I'm just reading here," I said. Ngumisi siya sa akin na ikinataka ko.

"I thought mentalist charmers are fast reader? Bakit kanina ka pa stuck sa page na 'yan?"

Tumungo ako at nakitang hawak ko ang isang libro. Hindi ko nga napansin na hawak ko pa iyon hanggang ngayon. And worst, nakabaliktad ito. I immediately closed it as Fantomina laugh her butt off. Napairap ako. We're not even close for her to laugh at me.

"I'm just thinking about something. Don't mind me. I'm a mentalist, remember? This is normal for us." Tumayo ako bigla kaya tumayo na din siya.

"Saan ka pupunta? After a minutes from now would be the time of our next class. Si Sir Abacus pa naman ang teacher natin. Ayaw niya ng late," paliwanag niya. I sighed again.

"Fine." Magpapahangin lang sana ako kasi hindi pa ako nakaka-recover sa nangyari. I wish I can eliminate some of my bad memories. Memories that I don't like to remember anymore. People from the past are hard to forget. Especially, the one who you shared a lot of memories with. Hangga't nasa utak mo ang mga pinagsamahan ninyo, either it's bad or not, hinding-hindi mo sila makakalimutan. Even I want to neglect them, I can't. Because they're still a part of me. I still have the memories we shared together.

Saktong pumasok ang ilang mga estudyante sa loob ng classroom. Ang mga kaklaseng hindi ko kilala at wala akong balak kilalanin. Mas mabuti ng hindi ako mapalapit sa kanila. Once you get used of everything and you cared about them, mahihirapan ka ng mag let go. Ito ang pinakamahirap gawin: To leave everything behind like a dead star falling from its cosmos.