Coming home|Linstead|

hardships

I know that Hank is worried about me because he knows that I miss Jay a lot. I wear his dog tags from his last tour. He gave them to me before he left. Ever since he left and I found out about the babies. I have been worried that if I go into labor early then he won't be able to meet them, and he doesn't even know they exist. I know that was my decision but was it the right one.

Hank's POV

Erin, you okay? I asked

Yea, why? Erin said

You haven't moved in like five minutes. I said

Sorry, I guess I just got lost in my thoughts. There's a lot going on right now I guess. Erin said

Do you need the week off to figure things out. I asked

No, I'll be fine. I just need to work to keep my mind off of it. Erin said

What's on your mind? I asked

I guess if I was right to not tell Jay about me being pregnant. Erin said

Erin, you can always change your mind and tell him you know that right? I said

I know, but if I do tell him he will ask questions and I can't lie to him so then I'll end up telling him that I've know but I just decided that I shouldn't tell him. He will be mad at me. Erin said

Jay, knows you love him and will do anything to protect him, if you decide to tell him then he will understand why you didn't tell him

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Alright everyone we got a case. Hank said

Where we heading to? Dawson asked

Chicago Avenue. Alright Erin you're with me. Rest of you are with your usual partners. Hank said

If I'm with you then let me make one thing clear and I say this with respect. I am driving. Erin said

Erin can we talk in my office. The rest of you can head out we will meet you there. Hank said.

Got it sarge. Everyone said as they were all heading out to their cars.

Once they leave Erin and Hank head into his office to talk. She is a little nervous because of what she just said.

So, what was that about? Hank asked

What was what about? Erin asked hoping that he just forgot what she said

What you said. Hank said

I was just making sure you knew how I work. Erin said

Well, I'll let it slide this one time, since I know that you miss having Jay here. Just make sure that it doesn't happen again. I will allow you drive this one time. Hank said

Thank you, I guess I have now made my decision about if I'm going to tell Jay about the babies. Erin said.

Ok, and what did you decide? Hank asked

I have decided that I am going to tell him because if I don't then I will have all this guilt following me around. Erin said

Let's go. Hank said

Ok. Erin said

3rd Person POV

It was silent the whole way to the crime scene. When they arrived it looked like everything was under control until they got out of their cars they heard a big explosion and everyone took cover. Once the fire department showed up and put the fire out and gave them the all clear to go in. They went in to investigate, when they entered Erin took the main floor while everyone else took different levels. When she was searching the house she found another bomb and she had activated told everyone to get out of the house. They told her that they wouldn't leave her, but she said that they all have families that love them and to get out.

Erins POV

No one is listening to me when I tell them to get out since their is a bomb in here and it is activated. "Everyone get the hell out of here. Go be safe and I want you all to know that I love you. And tell Jay that I love him, and that I'm sorry for killing our kids." I said "Erin, listen to me I am not leaving you, everyone else get out." Hank yelled "Hank, you have Justin, Olive, and Daniel that need you. You have done too much for me and I won't let you kill yourself for me. Hank please leave." I said while trying to hold back the tears. "Erin, if I let you do this I won't be able to live with myself. Please let me do this." Hank said "Hank, I can't let you do this please just leave. I will be watching over you with Camille." I said "Erin, I love you and I will see you soon." Hank said while he was leaving to go outside. "I love you too, and tell Jay I love him and I always have since the day we started working together, and that the time we had with each other was the best time." I said "I will tell him." Hank said

Ok Erin you can do this just lift your foot up and this will all be over. On the count of three you lift your foot up and run like you have never run before. Before I knew it I had lifted my foot, and I was standing there not knowing what to do but to run, and I ran but I didn't run fast enough. I could see the front door, but then I am flying out of the house and land outside on the hard cement. I can't hear anything, my ears are ringing but I see a ton of people surrounding me. Hank is right by me. I imagine he is yelling at someone to help me. All I can think is about is Jay and the babies. I keep thinking that I should of told him when right when I found out and not of waited because now I probably killed our kids.