"Do you think you might have cold feet?" Lauren asked me.
"I don't know, I'm just not feeling inspired," I replied, rubbing my arms up and down.
"This one's pretty," Lauren said pointing to a white dress covered in lace.
"Yeah, I just don't see myself wearing it," I said.
"Do you remember when we were younger and we used to always dream about our weddings? You always said you wanted an extravagant wedding... what happened to that?"
I shrugged as I walked over to a nice and simple dress, "This one's nice."
"For my grandma," she scoffed, "what's wrong?"
I shook my head walking ahead of her trying to avoid her question.
"Camila what's wrong?" She repeated more forcefully.
"I don't want to talk about it, at least not right now," i said looking up at her.
"Hello Camila, how are you?" Lisa said walking up to me.
"I'm fine, you?"
"Pretty good," she said, "have you liked any dresses that you've seen?"
"No not really, I think I want a plain and simple dress," I explained.
"Okay, I'll be right back," she said walking over to the sales lady.
"Do you ever feel like you're making a huge mistake but there's no way to escape it?" I asked.
"Don't tell me you finally realize that this wedding is a huge mistake..." Lauren said.
"I don't know..." I sighed.
"It's not to late to back out Camila Im sure Xavier will understand," she said.
I'm sure he won't. Since day one he's always wanted to settle down. If I call the wedding off we'll be over for good. But i mean that's a good thing right? So I can focus on Justin and be with him instead.
"Here are a couple of plain and simple dresses what don't we take a look at them and chose some to try on," Lisa said interrupting my thoughts.
I followed her and as she showed me the dresses I picked out three of them to try on. I changed out of my clothes and tried the first one on. It was simple but big and flowed a few feet behind me. The veil was placed in my hair and I slowly walked out to look at myself in the mirror.
"Wow you look gorgeous," Lauren said as I turned towards the mirror.
I stared at myself in the large white dress. I didn't belong in it, for some reason it didn't feel like it was meant to be. I knew what that reason was yet I kept wanting to deny it.
"Can we do this another day, I'm not feeling well," I said to Lisa.
I quickly got out of the dress and rescheduled with Lisa before walking out of the dress shop with Lauren.
"Let's get something to eat," I said as I liked Lauren with me.
As we sat in the corner of the cute restaurant I explained everything that I had been feeling and everything that had happened, who Justin was and why I was feeling the way I was.
"So you basically cheated on Xavier," she said.
"Lauren that's not why I told you all this," I said.
"I know but I'm happy that you cheated on that bastard," she said.
"Jesus what has he ever done to you?" I asked.
