"I'm fine...." "...No you're not" BTS Jin Ff

Background story (pls read before part 1)

So this is kind of like what happened early on. Kind of how she grew up and what she has experienced in her life before 'Part 1'. I felt like I needed to write this (even though I was like half way through the story lol) because I reread what I wrote and I felt like I didn't really explain the backdrop of the story. Is backdrop the right word, idfk but ya know whatever, if you get what I mean 'good job' and if you don't 'I'm shit at explaining stuff'  so please forgive me.

Jia lives in a house with her mother and father. Her parents fight often and always gets involved it them. Her parents fights everyday and it has been like that since before she was born. Her mother is an alcoholic and verbally abuses Jia on a regular basis. She rarely hits her but she has certainly done it before and she will when Jia tries to fight back. Her father was kind to her when she was younger (around 15?) but they grew apart because Jia started shutting people out.

Jia tries to hide the fact that she's suffering. She's very used to being abandoned, she has three older siblings, her oldest brother who she doesn't remember because he left home when she was one. Her second eldest brother left when she was 5, she was apparently very close with him but she only vaguely remembers their memories. Her sister left when she was 16, Jia loved her a lot and so did Jisu but she eventually left as well. They all left because they couldn't handle their mother. They all suffered a lot but

When Jisu left, Jia felt like she was abandoned once again and started to break down. She has broken down before but her sister was always there but now she wasn't.

Jia hates herself, she sometimes thinks everything is her fault, actually no, not sometimes, she always feels like it's her fault. She takes everything out on herself.

Jia has two friends who don't know a thing what happens at her home. Jia has opened up a little but always closes her door when her friends don't believe her. Her friends think her mother is a wonderful person because they've met her and Jia's mother always acts kind. Her mother is only like that around other people.

At the age of 17, she finds a small escape from her life. She finds an idol group called BTS. Their music helps her through her life. She still struggles and BTS only seem to be a small distraction. Bts also bought her and her friends together. They share the love for bts together but for Jia, bts is more than just an Idol group.

At the age of 20, she's still broken inside. She doesn't seem like it because she smiles a lot when she's not at home so no one expects it. But then she starts to cave in, she doesn't want to act all happy anymore, she's lost the strength to live when something horrible happens.

Hope that makes sense, hope it's interesting enough 😅

And please don't be afraid to criticise the ff. I want to learn to be a better writer if I can. Anyway, hope you guys will enjoy the ff. 😁 💚💚💚