Slam

loving 101

I want to know

every inch of your body

i want to know you

i want to be sure of the meaning behind each and every one of your tattoos

i wonder if you write thinking about me, too

i want to touch as much as i want to feel you

your outside might be beautiful but i want to see you inside out 

because the feelings of your words like waves against my rib coasts are not enough

to let me know

i am loved

for all of the years i spent thinking nothing i could ever do would be enough

i want to trace a faithful hand across your chest and i want to let you know

i'm here

for you

i am afriad i might not love you right because i have so many insecutities myself that i forget that you have demons chewing in your brain as well

My love

i'm sorry

but i want you to promise me that you also want me this way

because if for a second

just a split second

you let me believe you do not want me

i'm gonna break 

and i wish i wasn't this needy

i wish this wasn't what i learned love is

i wish i knew a different way of loving you

but this is all i have

all i've gathered through this life now you teach me

if you may

how to be for you what you need

how to be

someone should give loving 101 at school

someone should let us know that yes

of course you can be loved if you don't love yourself

but it's harder for you and it's harder for them

if i'm not even myself yet

if i don't even know who i am

how can i ever love me

how can you?

i don't know

but please

let me touch you

teach me how

i swear i'll be gentle

if you are

for every single man that has ruined us

let's show each other what it feels like

the sweet touch of another woman

that has been equally bent and torn apart