Seventeen Imagines

• J O S H U A •

Type: sad
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I know your heart isn't with me
There is no use in time either
Baby please say nothing

Everytime me and my boyfriend, Joshua, go on a date,it feels like I'm the only one enjoying it.

It feels like I'm going out with a friend rather than a boyfriend. I love Joshua a lot but I know, there's someone else in his heart.

Even if I try to pretend like it's nothing
She was always the person
that shined in your eyes
It wasn't me
I'll silently send you to her

Today, marks our 7th month together. Also the day I'm calling it quits. No matter how much I love him, I want him to be happy. Even though I'm not the one making him happy,a smile on his face can brighten my day.

I tried ignoring the twinkle in his eyes when he's messaging with her but it wasn't helping.It just kept on hurting me more and more as each day passes.

Whoo oh, oh, oh, oh~
Be more honest with yourself
Whoo oh, oh, oh, oh~
She's still in your heart
Whoo oh, oh, oh, oh~
It's not like you to pay attention
Whoo oh, oh, oh, oh~
My heart is unlike my own

I've tried talking to Joshua about his true feelings. Each time I ask him about his true feelings, he said his feeling for me is true but honestly, I think I messed his feelings up.

I've told Joshua multiple times that it's fine if he had feelings for a different person. At first, everytime he would resist his feelings, I would think it's fine. But now, I feel my heart burning up everytime he insists he loves me.

It's okay to go to her
I'll only accept that,don't worry about me
Just Go Just Go
I'll let go of the hand that I held
Before I change my mind,
don't regret it and
Just Go Just Go Just Go Just Go.

I've got to break up with hin before everything goes completely wrong. I have to make Joshua TRULY happy with the one that he truly loves.

I'm currently waiting for Joshua at the park we first met. I came 2 hours earlier than him on purpose to clear my memories with him.
It truly saddens me that I have to let him go but anything for Joshua's happiness.

It feels like I forcefully forced myself in your heart that didn't have a place for me
I feel bad seeing you who's feelings I messed up with
So much that you can't tell
head from tails
Don'f be sorry if you do that,my heart will burn up
We weren't fated
Parting is our answer
I don't know how it'll be for you, but every night will be gloomy for me
You look so much happier next to her
That I don't even compare
I'm dumping on you now.

"Y/N ah! You're so early~"

I turned around and there standing, smiling like an angel was Joshua.
His expression suddenly turned into a frown.

"why are you crying? Did I do something wrong?"

I didn't even realise I was crying. I quickly wiped away my tears and told him to come nearer.

"Joshua~ lets stop meeting each other from now on."

Whoo~ oh, oh, oh, oh
Be more honest with yourself
Whoo~ oh, oh, oh, oh
She's still in your heart
Whoo~ oh, oh, oh, oh
It's not like you to pay attention
Whoo~ oh, oh, oh, oh
My heart is unlike my own

"Are you sick?Are you cold? Wanna get coffee to warm you up?"

"STOP CHANGING THE SUBJECT JOSHUA HONG!"

"What are you talking about Y/N ah?why should we stop meeting?"

"Stop lying to yourself Joshua.
You don't love me, you love her. Stop hurting yourself like this. Please, for our sake, go to her. I don't mind Joshua~ as long as you're happy, smiling and healthy. That's all I want.You think I like to see you lying to yourself about your feelings every single day?"

Just go to her again, oh to her
Now babe babe babe
It was messed up from the beginning
In the end I became the fool

I hope for the happiness you couldn't have with me

"I'm sorry Y/N ah. I just can't forget her no matter how hard I tried to and I thought if I persuaded myself that I love you, I'd end up forgetting her but I guess I was wrong."

"You love her don't you?Go get her back. You don't want to keep a lady waiting any longer don't you? I hope you find true happiness with her Joshua."

"Thanks Y/N for understanding, friends?"

"Friends! Now go get her bud!"

I feel half my heart breaking seeing him running away.While the other half healed back knowing he's going to be way happier with her.

'You did the right thing Y/N ah~'

After Joshua was gone from sight, I walked back home.
Home was 30 minutes away but I could care less.I wanted to clear my mind.

My tears are falling slowly as
I walk back home looking miserable.

'At least he's happier with her'

At least he's still in my life.
As a friend of course.
Now I'll just have to move on and find my own happiness.

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february is a blessing ppl.

Nct Dream is having a comeback.
SF9 is having a comeback.
Red Velvet is having a comeback.
Monsta X is having a comeback.

What next? I swear I'm not crying. My eyes are just sweating and my money grew wings :')

P. S
the song is called 'Just Go' by iKON.