why me? (Niall horn love story) ***draft***

here i am an 18 year old girl who just lost her parents, whos brother is a drug addict, my ex boyfriend is abusive, why me? havent i sufferd enough all i want is too feel loved, is that too much to ask for... 

 Grace?, Grace honey we have to go says El and perrie, Go were? Perrie and El look at each other and hug me and say to your parents funrel, okay i say let me go have a shower. i cant help but quietly sob in the shower i dont want them to hear me even though they would understand, everytime i think or blink i keep on re living the moment when the peolice come to my door saying that your parents have been murderd. as a tear rolls down my cheek i look in the mirror and see my blood shot eyes. 

Perries POV 

she just lost her parents, we cant tell her now wait for a couple of weeks i say as i close my phone, who was that el asks it was zayn asking how Grace is doing , thats great what cant you tell her i cant tell her that Niall is coming back "WHAT DO YOU MEAN HES COMING BACK, THATS GREAT NEWS" el says well not for her remember who he left leaving a note saying we cant be together because i cant lie to you anymore this is the only way i will protect you