Ill Transmitted Infection

Rejected Blood

*Although my father was never really there
I tried to respect him, since I didn't care
I tried not to play the blame game
Since I know everything will stay the same
But then I heard his unforgivable sin, that angered me within
He got in bed with his own blood
That made me sick in the inside thinking he had learned
But this just threw my respect in the fire to burn*

I'm just asking myself , how did this end up in my book shelf
Although my respect for you was small like an elf
You still had some of my respect
A father is supposed to be a provider and protect
He's supposed to be a leader, not someone that I neglect
Instead of a model, he's someone I reject
Instead of loving you're someone I learned to hate
You are forgiven because that's one of my traits
But never will I forget all of the anger that I felt

Instead of being proud of his blood, I honestly don't even want a hug
Although his Blood travels through my lungs like a drug
I don't want nothing to do with him and his kind
They say that with time, everything will show that you were meant to find
Although I always stay on my grind, this small conflict triggered my mind
Not with sadness but anger that's within
How you claim to be a Christian that tries not to sin
That you've learned from what you seen and where you've been

Although you claim forgiveness is what you seek
deep down you're a Demon at its peak
True color will always leak in the creek
Although you think it's hidden deep, lies are something that you can't keep
They always come to the light like a creep, and haunt you in your deep sleep